Saturday, June 22, 2013
So, today started out really well. I was up at 530am, took the dogs to the park and we all walked for a bit. When I came home, I hopped on the treadmill for 25 minutes, and then 25 minutes on the bicycle. Sounds good so far right? All was well until I went to my moms house to take her out to a lunch of her choice for her Birthday. She chose Mexican Food at a really good restaurant. Chips and salsa came, an appetizer of Jalepeno Poppers were ordered (I ate one), then I ordered a bean burrito with cheese and sour cream (ate half of it). Once we were all done there, we went back to the house and all enjoyed a piece of strawberry cake (fresh strawberries with the glaze and whipped cream topping on a white cake), sugar free strawberry ice cream; all of which I bought and brought with me for Mom's Birthday. Did I have to bring a cake? Probably not but in our culture it is like everything revolves around food. Did I have to have some cake? NO...but I did and it wasn't a small piece. I felt guilty the entire time I ate it and felt sick to my stomach afterwards. Then to make matters worse, when I got home tonight, my husband took us out to Carinos for dinner and I had a Chicken Parmesan Pannini...it was good (only ate maybe half of it). However, I ate probably a full loaf of the bread with the oil all by myself. Geeze. I also have to confess on the way home, I really wanted to have a sugar free Slurpee..guess what, the machine was broken. So, instead I got an apple fritter and I ate the entire thing. OMG. I really need to figure out what is going on with me. It seems like I end up doing this kind of behavior a few times a week. I know it's binging on really bad types of food. I am emotionally tied to food and I don't know how to cut the tie and stop this behavior. UGH. I guess I just need to take it one meal at a time. Tomorrow is another day and another chance to get back on track.