Zoning Out

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Haha I hadn't realized it had been a whole week since I wrote my last blog entry... or gotten on Spark at all. Oops!

Well, the first half of this week was bad. Somehow I just stopped tracking my food and made some bad food decisions. Yesterday was my third day "back on the wagon" as it were, and I kept it at 1235, 1255, and 1570 calories respectively. Even so, though, I feel like I need to focus on eating healthier, not just on my calories for the day. I've been eating out a lot more - albeit healthy stuff like sushi and steamed rice and sauteed veggies kind of stuff - but no doubt there's all kinds of sodium, genetically modified veggies and grains, and antibiotic/non-organic stuff going on. Sometimes I can't help but wonder if little stuff like that is setting me up for failure. I know it made a HUGE, ENORMOUS difference switching to organic milk when I first started this journey. Well, one step at a time, I suppose. I guess when I'm steady enough on the calorie intake, I can worry about the quality of what I'm eating, right?

Still haven't quite gotten on the fitness wagon yet, although I genuinely want to! I was intending on starting up on the bike again for starters, but this has been a really stressful work week (another patient died on my shift and the higher-ups aren't happy that it wasn't caught right away) and by the time I get home, I have just enough energy to feed and love on my dogs (which includes a ridiculous number of mosquito and chigger bites. UGH! My legs and arms are covered!), then collapse and drift off while watching one episode of something on Netflix. Hopefully on this weekend I will have the time and energy to get something, started, though! I know I'll start feeling a lot better once I'm exercising regularly.

I have been doing little things to jump start the fitness, process, though! Whenever I get up from my work station I always find a reason to take quick jaunts upstairs, like getting more water or using the bathroom that's furthest away. And once the sun goes down and it's not too hot I will jog out the far reaches of the parking lot where my car is and move it closer to the building (it's not much, but it's something, right?). One of the biggest inspirations for me during this process was the day I was able to go up a flight of stairs without being winded, haha. Every little bit helps, I suppose.

In other news, it's my Friday at work and I totally don't want to go! Some friends of mine were going to have a get together tonight, and I so rarely get to see them (or anyone ever!) and I really, really want to go! It really saddens me that every time they want to do something, it's always when I'm working. It kind of stinks that I probably won't hear from them for another month or so. Arg, so frustrating! That coupled with the fact that tonight is going to be super stressful (and apparently I have an irritated/infected tear duct, which HURTS), that makes the temptation to call in "sick" nearly overwhelming.

Oh well, though. No point in stressing out over something that really isn't a big deal. Maybe I will have a small lunch of mini pierogies and a Greek yogurt so I can splurge at dinner to make up for it - I've been craving fish and chips for, like, ever!

Oh, wow, I have to leave for work in 15 minutes and I'm not even dressed! Oops again! I hope everyone is having a great weekend so far!
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    It's nice to see a blog from you again! :) And it sounds like you've gotten back on the wagon quite nicely. I can totally relate to your focusing more on calories than on what those calories actually consist of. I'm exactly the same way. I know I should focus on eating healthier, but that takes more effort, and quite frankly, most of my effort is usually expended on just trying to eat less, if you know what I mean. It's kind of a vicious cycle. Also, I'm not really that convinced about several types of "organic", but I'd have to do much more research before I form a definitive opinion. In any case, any effort you're making to get healthier, whether it be limiting calorie intake, or moving around more, is a GOOD thing, and definite progress. I'm glad to hear that you're getting all that extra movement in, because seriously, every little bit does count. When you're ready to exercise more, you will. Eventually, even if you don't like it, your body will come to crave it. I still hate exercising, to be honest, but feel so much better after I do, and feel like complete and utter crap if I don't for a few days. Like today. I missed a couple of days, overate on both those days, and now I feel bloated and weak an yucky. So my plan today: drink LOTS of water, eat as little as I can without eating too little, and pump my bike like crazy when I get home from work. In a few days, I know I'll feel better, but until then, it'll be hell. Oh, the things we do to our poor bodies!

    Sorry to hear about both your stresses at work (dealing with deaths on your shift must be quite the challenge!), and your scheduling conflicts with your friends. I hope at least you manage to work your fish and chips in somehow!
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    OMGGG Don't even get me started on "organic" vegetables and this whole GMO debate nonsense. If you want to spend more money on food, at least get something where there is appreciable difference in quality. Buy grass-fed meat instead of corn-finished. I won't say anything about anything else in polite company :p

    I am glad to hear that you are encorporating more movement in, in your own way! That's the only way it's going to work. If you are enjoying yourself and getting the little bit of extra extra in here& there, you'll enjoy it more than forcing yourself to do one thing you don't enjoy for a comparable amount of time!

    Unfortunately for myself, I dislike all movement. Period. So, I force myself to do the bike. Otherwise, I'd sloth all over the house, yo!
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