Saturday, June 22, 2013
Haha I hadn't realized it had been a whole week since I wrote my last blog entry... or gotten on Spark at all. Oops!
Well, the first half of this week was bad. Somehow I just stopped tracking my food and made some bad food decisions. Yesterday was my third day "back on the wagon" as it were, and I kept it at 1235, 1255, and 1570 calories respectively. Even so, though, I feel like I need to focus on eating healthier, not just on my calories for the day. I've been eating out a lot more - albeit healthy stuff like sushi and steamed rice and sauteed veggies kind of stuff - but no doubt there's all kinds of sodium, genetically modified veggies and grains, and antibiotic/non-organic stuff going on. Sometimes I can't help but wonder if little stuff like that is setting me up for failure. I know it made a HUGE, ENORMOUS difference switching to organic milk when I first started this journey. Well, one step at a time, I suppose. I guess when I'm steady enough on the calorie intake, I can worry about the quality of what I'm eating, right?
Still haven't quite gotten on the fitness wagon yet, although I genuinely want to! I was intending on starting up on the bike again for starters, but this has been a really stressful work week (another patient died on my shift and the higher-ups aren't happy that it wasn't caught right away) and by the time I get home, I have just enough energy to feed and love on my dogs (which includes a ridiculous number of mosquito and chigger bites. UGH! My legs and arms are covered!), then collapse and drift off while watching one episode of something on Netflix. Hopefully on this weekend I will have the time and energy to get something, started, though! I know I'll start feeling a lot better once I'm exercising regularly.
I have been doing little things to jump start the fitness, process, though! Whenever I get up from my work station I always find a reason to take quick jaunts upstairs, like getting more water or using the bathroom that's furthest away. And once the sun goes down and it's not too hot I will jog out the far reaches of the parking lot where my car is and move it closer to the building (it's not much, but it's something, right?). One of the biggest inspirations for me during this process was the day I was able to go up a flight of stairs without being winded, haha. Every little bit helps, I suppose.
In other news, it's my Friday at work and I totally don't want to go! Some friends of mine were going to have a get together tonight, and I so rarely get to see them (or anyone ever!) and I really, really want to go! It really saddens me that every time they want to do something, it's always when I'm working. It kind of stinks that I probably won't hear from them for another month or so. Arg, so frustrating! That coupled with the fact that tonight is going to be super stressful (and apparently I have an irritated/infected tear duct, which HURTS), that makes the temptation to call in "sick" nearly overwhelming.
Oh well, though. No point in stressing out over something that really isn't a big deal. Maybe I will have a small lunch of mini pierogies and a Greek yogurt so I can splurge at dinner to make up for it - I've been craving fish and chips for, like, ever!
Oh, wow, I have to leave for work in 15 minutes and I'm not even dressed! Oops again! I hope everyone is having a great weekend so far!