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Sweet Child Of Mine

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Saturday, June 22, 2013

I am blessed to be the mother of two sons. My oldest will be 29 next month, and my youngest will be 28 next week. Where did the time go? It seems like just yesterday that they were still little boys who had to reach up to give me a hug and kiss. Now, they are adults, and they both tower over me... I'm the one who has to reach up for a hug and kiss!

When they were very young, I would sing to them, and they each had their own favorite songs. For my oldest son, it was "Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go." He'd probably be embarrassed if I reminded him of that today, though!

My youngest son's favorite song was "Sweet Child O' Mine." I still sing that song to him just about every day, and it still brings such a sweet, gentle smile to his face. I wish he could sing the words along with me, but he can't. He has autism, and he doesn't speak. He is still a little boy in many ways, but in a grown up body.

He can't take care of himself, so I take care of all his needs....dressing him, cleaning him, etc. Yes, he requires a lot from me, but he gives back so much. He loves me, and although he can't verbalize it, I can see it in his eyes and in his smile.

A few years ago, I had given up on myself due to depression, and I allowed myself to become sedentary and obese. I reached my highest weight, 286 lbs. Being so overweight made it hard to take care of myself, and of course it made it harder for me to take care of my son. I was slowly killing myself. I had really given up.

Thank God, I woke up and realized what I was doing to myself, and by extension to my dear son. I was not giving him the best care. I was not being the best mother to him that I could be. I knew I had to start taking care of my health....for my sake, and for his. He needs me.

Since March of last year, my health has become a priority. I eat right, and I exercise. I have lost 71 lbs and I have gotten strong. Caring for my son is much easier now. And he is healthier too, because I pay attention to what he eats. I control his portions, and I give him good, healthy foods. I keep him active by taking him for walks, and trying to get him to do yoga with me. He won't do a full yoga workout, but he will try to do a few poses along with me.

I know that I won't always be able to take care of my son. There will come a time when I will be too old. But I am going to do my best to postpone that day for as long as possible. Taking care of my health has been a gift...not only for myself, but also for my son.

Happy birthday, sweet child of mine! I love you!


"Sweet Child O' Mine"

He's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see his face
It takes me away to that special place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably break down and cry

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

He's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they'd thought of rain
I'd hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
His hair reminds me of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

Where do we go?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go?
Sweet child o' mine
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    1702 days ago
    I just looove your blog! When my children grew up and on their own, I hit depression like a freight train. 2 of my boys are in the service, 1 boy is studying psychology, and my daughter is a cancer survivor and going to school for medical assisting. Empty nest syndrome is real, for me it is anyway!
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  • ARW715
    Thank you for sharing this.
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    Such a wonderful blog! You are a wonderful mother and it's great that you took time to take care of yourself so you can take care of your son! I wish you all the best in life!!!!
    1702 days ago
    Oh Pixie, you so often touch me with your blogs, and for the comments you leave on my page, but today, I am in tears. Tears because you are such a wonderful Mom, and you probably are a REALLY good person to boot!
    May the road you travel be an easier road.
    God Bless you Pixie,


    1702 days ago
  • NEWTON1068
    Very sweet blog...you sound like your just in love with your kids. Motherhood is one of the greatest gifts God can bestow upon us as humans. Enjoy every moment...for time passes so quickly._Thank You once again for sharing-Karen
    1702 days ago
  • DEBLYNN323
    Great blog! You sound like a great mom! emoticon
    1702 days ago
    Oh Pixie, this is lovely! Thanks for all your inspiration, but especially this.
    1703 days ago
    This blog entry was great and it made me realize how lucky I am, how blessed everyone is. My sister has an autistic daughter, not a severely as your son but there are challenges there certainly. Have you ever read the books by Temple Grandin? She is functioning autistic but it is still an inspiring read. Good wishes for your yoga practice, from a fellow yogaite :)~
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    1703 days ago
    Another beautiful blog by a beautiful lady! Well done!! Here's hoping your journey is continuing on in your positive manner.......You are SUCH an inspiration. Thank you for sharing. emoticon
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  • 222NICHOLE
    You are so sweet! Great job for working to make yourself and your son healthy! It definitely is so important to live healthily and makes life much more full. You are amazing! Thank you for inspiring us.
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    1703 days ago
    Good for you, and happy birthday to your son!! I'm going to have two little boys myself this fall (fraternal twins) and I am SO looking forward to it. :)
    1703 days ago
    Wonderful blog! Wonderful mother! Wonderful example! Wonderful friend!

    Thank you for being you. You are an inspiration.
    1703 days ago
    I pray that GOD will continue to give you what you need to take care of your son & send labors across your path to help you in JESUS name. emoticon
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  • CAROLJ35
    A wonderful blog from a wonderful mom!
    God bless both you and your son as you celebrate this special day with him.
    And may He continue to bless you as you follow this path of healthy eating and losing weight!
    Thanks for sharing the song as I was not familiar with it.

    emoticon emoticon emoticon to your son!!!
    1703 days ago
  • MJ7DM33
    emoticon to your son! Great blog! WTG on your weight loss! Thx for sharing!
    1703 days ago
  • HEARTS116
    1703 days ago
    You sound like such a great Mom! You have a great attitude and a great spirit:-) You're also very strong and giving. Thanks for sharing! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1703 days ago
    This is a great blog, a testament to your love for your sons. And I commend you for changing your life and taking good care of yourself. You are a wonderful woman and God has a special plan for your life. Your sons are also blessed to have you.

    Taking care of a child with special needs can be hard some days. But then there will be a moment, and sometimes it's when we most need it, there will be love.

    Congratulations on your weight loss, and on having two wonderful sons.
    1703 days ago
    Thanks for sharing this. You are a very special person and I am so glad to know you!
    1703 days ago
    Great job pulling out of your depression as it is easy to slip into with weight gain no doubt. I commend you for losing the weight! Such a busy life you lead, but we come to realize if we don't take care of ourself we don't do a good job at anything else. Non speaking autistic child has to be a work out in itself & I also commend you for doing such a great job @ that! I wish you & him as well as your other son & your sweet songs many happy days ahead!
    1703 days ago
    wow Pixie.
    I am impressed. I had thought you pretty easy life because you are on spark people a lot, send thank you notes to all who post on your blog (at least that is how it seems to me), and have time to send encouraging words to your spark friends.

    You do all this- plus have a husband around and a son you have to care for everyday.

    I think with that kind of determination you can do anything you put your mind to.

    You truly are an inspiration!
    1703 days ago
  • ANYVAR54
    Thank you so much for sharing, and for your experience of coming out of your depression. Wonderful news. And congratulations on the weight loss!!!
    1703 days ago
  • ZOE13O
    Thank you for sharing. You are an amazing mom and I'm glad you realized you need to take care of YOU too! Kudos on your weight loss!
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    So sweet! I am glad you woke up and decided to start taking care of yourself because if you don't take care of you, you cannot take care of anyone else. Your sons are lucky to have a mother like you emoticon
    1703 days ago
    Thank you for sharing that is a a wonderful gift you are giving your son. way to go. and to be traveling the spark tail as well. you are a true inspiration to all of us thank you for sharing your story with the team.
    have a wonderful trip this week and to the end zone. emoticon
    1703 days ago
  • SHIRLEY721
    Very sweet and very sad too.May God bless you both!
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  • CYND59
    That is a great blog. Really sweet. Awesome job on the weight loss!
    1703 days ago
    God bless you and yours.
    1703 days ago
    Pixie, thank you for sharing your joys and struggles. Just imagine where you were a couple of years ago - how much you have changed for the better, and the legacy you are starting for your sons. We all have challenges in our lives - emotional, mental, health, poverty, etc. - that we must deal with. Congratulations on being the person you are, and realizing it's never too late to become who you might have been.
    1703 days ago
    You are so blessed to have him/them in your life!
    1703 days ago
    You are a WONDERFUL Mom and a very STRONG woman.

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    1703 days ago
    Thank you for sharing!
    1703 days ago
    Oh, this is such a lovely tribute to your dear son!
    1703 days ago
    Lovely blog - thank you for sharing.

    I also have 2 lovely sons, 25 and 22, and was really fortunate and honoured to be able to be a home Mum while they were pre-school.

    I am now further fortunate and honoured to spend a couple of hours of leisure time with a friend's autistic grandson, now age 12.
    His Mum was told, early on, that he would never be able to speak, he'd never amount to anything.
    Due to her hard work and loving - my young friend can speak, he can understand, he can communicate in a variety of ways, he has his own personality, and a great sense of humour.

    I am so glad to read that you have managed to find yourself and sort yourself out, both for you and for your sons.
    1703 days ago
  • CHERIJ16
    You always inspire me Pixie but you especially moved me today. I am a retired speech therapist and I worked with many autistic children over the years. My most rewarding experience was making home visits to little ones and their moms. The love and devotion I saw in my moms for their children was absolutely awe inspiring. I still look back on "my kids" and "my moms" with great love. I also know how difficult their journey can be. You are truly heroes.

    I also look back and wonder where time has gone with my son! He will be 42!! My grandsons are now 17 and 20 and it seems like yesterday they were all babes in my arms. My son is ADHD and has bipolar tendencies. He passed the ADHD on to my youngest grandson and I have had a special bond with him. I spent many summers helping him to work on his dyslexia and other learning disabilities. There is nothing I wouldn't do for him. When he asked me to "lose weight and get healthy so I wouldn't die" I made the decision to do just that! It is not always easy but it is the strong women like you who have helped me to persevere. emoticon
    1703 days ago
    Love the song Pixie! Happy Birthday to your son!
    1703 days ago
    Oh Pixie, Every time I read one of your blogs, I find a new reason to love, respect, and admire you. You are one awesome lady!!! Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us. I know you are a true inspiration to me. You make me want to do better!!!

    Love & Hugs,
    1703 days ago
    Beautiful blog! Thank you!
    1703 days ago
    ...And the greatest of these gifts is LOVE ! emoticon
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  • SPEEDY143
    emoticon to you both emoticon
    1703 days ago
  • LYNCHD05
    This is a lovely blog and I thank you for posting today. It made me a little sad and brought me great joy for how strong and special you are. You are there for so many of us as an inspiration to be better.
    1703 days ago
    Loved reading your blog today, Pixie! Thanks for sharing and congratulations on the Popular Blog Post award. What you do makes a world of difference for so many people.

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    Your love for your son radiates in your blog. What a fortunate young man he is. emoticon
    1703 days ago
    Pixie, I so loved reading your blog! You are one special lady and your sons are so lucky to have you! I love that song, it's the ringtone on my phone when my youngest son calls me :-) I remember meeting your son and Lori's daughter when we had the Ruby Lite meet up a few years ago.

    I'm so happy your are working so hard to be healthy for not only yourself, but for your kids!

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