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Sweet Child Of Mine

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Saturday, June 22, 2013

I am blessed to be the mother of two sons. My oldest will be 29 next month, and my youngest will be 28 next week. Where did the time go? It seems like just yesterday that they were still little boys who had to reach up to give me a hug and kiss. Now, they are adults, and they both tower over me... I'm the one who has to reach up for a hug and kiss!

When they were very young, I would sing to them, and they each had their own favorite songs. For my oldest son, it was "Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go." He'd probably be embarrassed if I reminded him of that today, though!

My youngest son's favorite song was "Sweet Child O' Mine." I still sing that song to him just about every day, and it still brings such a sweet, gentle smile to his face. I wish he could sing the words along with me, but he can't. He has autism, and he doesn't speak. He is still a little boy in many ways, but in a grown up body.

He can't take care of himself, so I take care of all his needs....dressing him, cleaning him, etc. Yes, he requires a lot from me, but he gives back so much. He loves me, and although he can't verbalize it, I can see it in his eyes and in his smile.

A few years ago, I had given up on myself due to depression, and I allowed myself to become sedentary and obese. I reached my highest weight, 286 lbs. Being so overweight made it hard to take care of myself, and of course it made it harder for me to take care of my son. I was slowly killing myself. I had really given up.

Thank God, I woke up and realized what I was doing to myself, and by extension to my dear son. I was not giving him the best care. I was not being the best mother to him that I could be. I knew I had to start taking care of my health....for my sake, and for his. He needs me.

Since March of last year, my health has become a priority. I eat right, and I exercise. I have lost 71 lbs and I have gotten strong. Caring for my son is much easier now. And he is healthier too, because I pay attention to what he eats. I control his portions, and I give him good, healthy foods. I keep him active by taking him for walks, and trying to get him to do yoga with me. He won't do a full yoga workout, but he will try to do a few poses along with me.

I know that I won't always be able to take care of my son. There will come a time when I will be too old. But I am going to do my best to postpone that day for as long as possible. Taking care of my health has been a gift...not only for myself, but also for my son.

Happy birthday, sweet child of mine! I love you!

"Sweet Child O' Mine"

He's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see his face
It takes me away to that special place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably break down and cry

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

He's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they'd thought of rain
I'd hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
His hair reminds me of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

Where do we go?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go?
Sweet child o' mine

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
CATNCAG 10/24/2013 1:43PM

    Wow Pix, I never knew! This just makes me admire u all the more! Way to go Mama!

I love Sweet Child O' Mine - Guns N Roses baby!

BTW I need to catch up with your weight lose girlfriend! Lol! Way to go!!!

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MAGA99 9/22/2013 5:10PM


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SUPERSYLPH 8/14/2013 7:20PM

    Wow, I had no idea. That's great that you started taking care of yourself for both you AND him.

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ALIDOSHA 7/6/2013 4:18PM


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FRANKI46 7/4/2013 8:36AM

  God bless you and your sons. Your are an amazing mom. I am so happy that you saw what was happening to you and then actually did something. Makes my reason seem a little vain, but not less important.
I work with autistic children. I love their honesty, and they are the sweetest even when they can't express themselves.
You are both lucky to have each other. Continue the great work you are doing. I am sure you'll be there in no time.

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CHRISGORGME 7/1/2013 3:16PM

    God never give us more than we can take, so stay strong!!
Happy birthday to your lucky boys!!

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1FARMER 7/1/2013 1:32PM

    Thank you for sharing this info on your family. You are definitely a strong and driven woman.
You are there for your family by putting your health at the top of the to do list.
Bless you. emoticon emoticon emoticon Jeanne

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CREE123 6/29/2013 3:14PM

    Beautiful. Thank u for your sharing. You are an inspiration. emoticon

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MNTWINSGAL 6/28/2013 11:02PM

    I love this blog and I'm so glad it was featured a few days ago, or I never would have seen it. Thank you for sharing some of the details of your journey, and Happy Birthday to your two lucky boys!

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CTUPTON 6/27/2013 3:49PM

    emoticon Ihave not read your blogs for awhile. You commented on my sparkpage--that gave me the push I needed to look you up! I am so glad I did. I missed your birthday. So Happy Belated Birthday! And Happy Birthday to your son, too. Chris

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GEORGE815 6/26/2013 7:02PM

    My sons are 29 and 27. What great ages.

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KNITTY_JESS 6/26/2013 6:47PM

    Wow, what a blog to have stumbled upon. Children with autism can tell us so much with just a look. I'm a teacher with a specialized program for students with autism. I teach 5th and 6th grade students. We always stress to the parents that their health needs to be a top priority because they can not help their children when they're not taking care of themselves. I commend you in so many ways. You know that your son sees this and has obviously recognized it by trying some yoga poses and walking with you. Keep doing what you do and he will keep thanking you in so many ways!

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SJKENT1 6/26/2013 3:38PM

    What a beautiful gift you are to each other. Thanks for sharing your story. You really make a point in your blogs to encourage us all to make healthy choices and you are a walking endorsement.

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ASRMOM 6/26/2013 2:06PM

    I never thought of this song like this, thank you for the new perspective! I can't begin to tell you how proud I am of you! You are not the same person that started this journey. You now are a woman who knows that she can do things she didn't dare dream of.

You have such a beautiful heart!

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CIROHIO 6/26/2013 12:12PM

    emoticon for sharing these wonderful memories with us. What a great Mom you are. You are a great example. Hope your son had a wonderful birthday! Cathe

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NHEMBERGER 6/26/2013 11:53AM

    Happy belated Birthday to your son! You are a wonderful mother!

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ANNASGOALS 6/26/2013 10:20AM

    What a beautiful blog Pixie the love you have for your sons shines off the page!. They are blessed to have you as their mother and you are a joy to know!

God Bless you!

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TDEMAIO2 6/26/2013 7:40AM

    emoticon your an AWESOME mom :D

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LEANMEAN2 6/26/2013 7:17AM

    Thanks for sharing. God bless you.

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MAREANNIE 6/25/2013 11:16PM

    May God Bless You!!

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MAMMS456 6/25/2013 11:14PM

    Getting caught up on my Sparkmail and knew right away when I saw your picture it was you in the featured blog post! That's awesome and a very moving post! So happy for your progress!

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PACKERMANN 6/25/2013 3:39PM

    you are blessed to be a blessing to many, my friend!
thank you for helping me to take a minute and thank God for my 3 healthy kids.

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SHARONCAPPS 6/25/2013 9:42AM

  What a wonderful story. I am so glad that you came out of your depression and have changed you life. Thanks for sharing.

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BETHFIRM 6/25/2013 9:16AM

  I just want to let you know how much I respect you. You don't know me but I've been following your posts since last month I think. I was so down and just could not get motivated. I prayed for God's help and God gave me you!! I turned on Sparkpeople and there was your blog!! I want to thank you as I sit here singing "Sweet Child of Mine" and if it's OK with you, I think you could use prayer also.

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DRB13_1 6/24/2013 11:57PM

    so nice to have a favorite song to share with each child...
my ringtone for my mom is Bette Midler's Baby O' Mine

don't forget your OWN favorite theme song emoticon

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FATIMAH5011 6/24/2013 11:47PM

  Thanks for sharing d feeling and d bond u have with your son with us, such a wonderful bond between u two. emoticon

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TREYONE 6/24/2013 9:37PM

  Thank you so much for sharing this wonderful story about your son!

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DRAVENFYR 6/24/2013 8:36PM

    children do bring things into perspective for us. Mine did the same.....I wanted to be able to run and play with my kids. I started thinking one day that what if one ran into the road for a toy and I couldn't get to him on time............ I cried that night........then I got my rear in gear.....I am so proud of's a shame that it took our boys to make us think of ourselves, but at the same time, thank goodness it was the thought of them that got us ya lots my friend

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4KWALK 6/24/2013 8:09PM

    Hello Spark Friend,
I too have been blessed with a very special son who needs his mom to be his caregiver. This gives me an enormous reason why I must look after myself so I can continue to look after him for as long as possible.

May you stay strong. Everytime you look at your son may you find peace and joy for yourself as well.

God bless.

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SANDYCRANE 6/24/2013 6:38PM

    Great song. Great story.


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CHERYLSBUTT 6/24/2013 6:16PM

    One of my first lessons from SP was to learn to use the word "I" more often.
I because I must do this for me. A lifestyle change is a personal choice with a heavy lift. Once you do it, the benefit to you is what you desire the benefit to others is the exponential blessing.

To your sons, Happy you.....way to go moma!!!

Continue to be AWESOME

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SASSYTHING52 6/24/2013 6:14PM

    thanks for sharing and you are a blessed wife/mother

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GOCALGAL 6/24/2013 4:51PM

    There is a special place in heaven for someone as caring and loving as you. May God bless and protect you and your sons always! Thanks so much for sharing.

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MINDYJ1 6/24/2013 4:04PM

    Beautiful. emoticon

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SUECHRIS50 6/24/2013 3:27PM

    I just LOVE this blog!It brought tears to my eyes!Bless you for making me appreciate though they drive me nuts ,they are healthy and walking around.Your sweet son is in my prayers!Tell him he made my day brighter jus thinking about his smile!!

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TERRIJ7 6/24/2013 1:19PM

    What a lovely blog! Thank you so much for sharing it.

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PESKIGIRL 6/24/2013 12:54PM

  This was amazing and I was touched -my brother is cognitively challenged (and also has autism). My mom is one of the most amazing people on this Earth. She's also been through tough times, but she's a fighter. Judging from what I'm reading, so are you. Congratulations and thank you for sharing!


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LUVTOBOWL 6/24/2013 12:31PM

    emoticon emoticon Happy birthday to your son Pixie, I know you made his day a special one.

What a blessing he has in you !


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MANILUS 6/24/2013 11:47AM

    He is blessed to have a mom that cares, bless you!

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BANDMOM2012 6/24/2013 11:47AM

    Great blog!

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PAM_COOPER 6/24/2013 11:05AM

    As I began reading I was thinking/comparing myself and my own grown daughters and as I read on and learned of your commitment to your youngest son, I could feel your incredible love. It brought tears to my sensitive soul. I know you love both of your children, but sometimes we are called upon to go above and beyond for those who need us most. I have been a caretaker for a period of my life and know what you sacrifice for love. You have an enormous responsibility and am so proud that you have recognized the fact that you must first take care of yourself to be able to take care of others.

Although for different reasons, my youngest daughter inspired me to lose weight as well. It has been nearly two years and I have surpassed my goal and feel 10 years younger and somewhat healthier. That feeling that you have given yourself the gift of what is most important -- your life--is exhilarating.

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LILORITA 6/24/2013 10:38AM

    emoticon emoticon for sharing!

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MARILYNNBARR 6/24/2013 10:30AM

  I have a daughter who is completely blind, but function at a higher level than your son. Although I will need to help her through out her life. I give you a lot of credit for looking at yourself and bringing yourself up out of that depression and starting the healthy road

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SUSIEMT 6/24/2013 10:23AM

    Thank you so much for sharing this private part of your life with me!

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