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Thank You, Everyone

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Thank you, everyone, for your support as I grieve the loss of my sweet cat, Sweetie. I am doing much better today, and am slowing coming to inner peace.

The main thing that I've resolved was my turmoil whether there was any chance of saving her, and we missed it. I mostly second guessed on whether we could have done more. Last night I looked up xray photos of lung cancer on the internet, and they were consistent with what we saw at the vet. This helped to lift the heaviness from my heart. We could have done biopsies and surgery, but it would not have saved her and given her good quality of life. She was already so frail and in respiratory distress, she would not have survived the treatment. She would have been miserable.

Yesterday, I picked up her ashes, and she is on our mantle. I picked flowers from our backyard this morning and put them on her box. I placed her favorite toy, a squirrel with a bushy tail like hers, next to her.

We estimate she was about 12 years old, but she only spent 4 years of it with us. I would have wanted more, of course, but it's never enough. The timing of all this with my philosophy class is uncanny, and I've spent much time in introspect about it. Whether we believe in life after death or not, I think we can all agree that a good life is spent with those who love us. I hope that the 4 years Sweetie spent with tuna, toys, catnip, sunny windows, and petting was better than all her previous years combined. I'm glad that she chose to spend the final days of her life with us.

Sweetie with her squirrel toy:

Sun worshipper:

Thanks again. I'll be back to my regularly scheduled programming soon.
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    So sad when you lose a pet. I lost my ANTHONY 13 yrs ago & thought I'd NEVER stop crying. I STILL get choked up sometimes when I talk about him. Your SWEETIE had a precious face. She is probably having a good time with my Anthony, playing with toys & "watching TV" (looking out a window) LOL emoticon
    1703 days ago
    So sorry to hear about your cat, Sweetie, our pets are really family members and you grieve their loss in the same way.
    1704 days ago
  • BILL60
    Hang in there!!
    1704 days ago
    Hi Cathy, Yes - it sounds like you ARE doing a bit better today, I'm so glad! Thank you for coming over to visit my page and for your comments on my photos, as well as condolences for my sweet Smokey-Boy. He is ever with me, as your Sweetie will be ever with you. After reading your comment about Lily's tail looking like Sweetie's, I took a better look at your doll and indeed it is the same tail ;) Lily is part Maine Coon and it looks like your fur baby at least had some of the Coon in her.?? (I loved your comment about the platter just being another box - LOL, so true)

    Just a comment on ashes . . . When my first little love died, many years ago - I held on to her ashes for a long time. When I was ready, my best friend took the best roses she could find in her mother's garden. We went up to the highest point we could find in a beautiful, lush green cemetery that we lived near. It was quiet and peaceful. We took Tara's ashes and the roses there and my friend walked in front of me scattering the rose petals while I scattered my beloved fur baby's ashes in back of her. We said a prayer afterwards and although I still missed her terribly for a long time, I was at peace.

    When you are ready you will move on also. I have no doubt those last 4 years of Sweetie's life were Heaven on earth for her. I am a conservative Christian woman, but I have no doubt that all our precious fur babies are in Heaven waiting for us . . . they are no longer in any pain, feel no hunger, and feel nothing but peace and joy lounging in the sun and chasing butterflies, (or carrying socks in his mouth as my Smokey-Boy did, but then that's another story).

    If you were supposed to know something sooner if she was ill, she would have let you know. I struggled with "hanging on too long." Be at peace - you filled Sweetie's end of life with love and joy and she knew it.

    Hugs and Blessings,
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    1704 days ago
  • CAROL494
    Take care! emoticon
    1704 days ago
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