Saturday, June 22, 2013
Thank you, everyone, for your support as I grieve the loss of my sweet cat, Sweetie. I am doing much better today, and am slowing coming to inner peace.
The main thing that I've resolved was my turmoil whether there was any chance of saving her, and we missed it. I mostly second guessed on whether we could have done more. Last night I looked up xray photos of lung cancer on the internet, and they were consistent with what we saw at the vet. This helped to lift the heaviness from my heart. We could have done biopsies and surgery, but it would not have saved her and given her good quality of life. She was already so frail and in respiratory distress, she would not have survived the treatment. She would have been miserable.
Yesterday, I picked up her ashes, and she is on our mantle. I picked flowers from our backyard this morning and put them on her box. I placed her favorite toy, a squirrel with a bushy tail like hers, next to her.
We estimate she was about 12 years old, but she only spent 4 years of it with us. I would have wanted more, of course, but it's never enough. The timing of all this with my philosophy class is uncanny, and I've spent much time in introspect about it. Whether we believe in life after death or not, I think we can all agree that a good life is spent with those who love us. I hope that the 4 years Sweetie spent with tuna, toys, catnip, sunny windows, and petting was better than all her previous years combined. I'm glad that she chose to spend the final days of her life with us.
Sweetie with her squirrel toy:
Thanks again. I'll be back to my regularly scheduled programming soon.