Saturday, June 22, 2013
Over the past week I have had a number of wake up calls! That have pushed me to join Sparkpeople.
Wake up call # 1: Tight Clothes: - I had a meeting for work and instead of wearing something in my closet I had to go out and buy a larger outfit.
Wake up call #2: Weighing 225#'s - I had to Face the bathroom scale. Why don't my clothes fit anymore??? Well, I wasn't that shocked when I saw the number. - I guess I thought if I didn't weigh myself I wouldn't weigh so much.
Wake up call # 3: Excuses/Lying - I told my friend I was busy when she invited me to go walking on Monday. The real excuse: my energy level was at 0, my joints hurt and I was tired after doing basic housework.
Wake up Call #4: Old Age - After going out for dinner this week with 7 of my friends, I realized that these wonderful, outgoing, happy women, whom I have known for 20 plus years, are my age and have stayed thin. When I asked them how they do it their responses were obvious: "eat healthy, count calories, limit white carbs and exercise, exercise, exercise". Makes sense why I now way 225 # -- I'm only 51- It's not due to my age - that was just an excuse I let myself use.
I like many people have always had issues with my weight was teased by classmates. But growing up with brothers I got involved in sports. Sports helped keep my weight under control. However, due to Injuries and foot surgery 2 years ago I stopped playing competitive sports. I also put my walking, riding bike on hold as well and gave myself the freedom to eat whenever and whatever I wanted. Portion size was not an option. Although, I was given the Doctor's okay to begin walking and bike riding after 6 months. I chose not too. (will have to dig into the reason for that later) The consequences of my actions have changed me both inside and out.
I am no longer the active, outgoing person I used to be. I have become someone else. I make excuses to myself, my husband and my friends to avoid bike riding, walking, gardening, swimming, etc... Instead of being honest with myself and my friends and family, I blamed my weight gain, laziness, aches and pains on my age. I have become a person who is unhappy, insecure, out of shape and exhausted and I am tired of letting my weight control me.
I am tired feeling this way! It is time for Me to Get My Spark Back!!!