It's only going to be 9 months tomorrow, but there is still days that I feel I have not accomplished much of anything. The scales at drugstores and doctors offices all say I weigh more than I do at home but I try to not let that get me down. That just means I have started at a higher number in their eyes. My scale still keeps moving down every week. So I know even if my bmi isn't correct or pounds isn't fully correct I still have lost that same amount of weight. I just need to keep my head up and remember that. It will never be an easy journey, the journey will never truly end. Because becoming healthy no matter what number you reach is a forever thing to keep in your reach. Making the decision to start was the best thing I ever done for myself and I don't regret it, don't think I will. I'll only regret if I stop trying and give up before I reach my goals. This journey means so much more to me than weight loss. It's regaining my self esteem I lost when I was a kid, being more confident in myself, appreciating who I was then and who I am now. I may not be the socialite in crowds, I may not be the party goer, or the amusement park rider, I may not be the one who can wear high heels and a skimpy cocktail dress and wear make up and be proud...but I am the one who can root for myself, I am the one who can appreciate the fact that who I am, who I was brought me a wonderful husband, stepdaughter who currently driving me crazy, and 3 of my very own flesh and blood children, who I am now has encouraged me to try new foods, to appreciate the little things, not worry about what we don't have especially as of possessions but what I do have here, which is lots of love and affection and happy times. Even on the most crazy days, and I kick the kids to bed a little earlier because of their misbehaviors, I can still look at our family photo and just smile. I have a family, something I never though possible when I was a teenager. You see I was the nerd, the dork, the ugly one, the one without many friends, the one who will succeed in high business but never have a family. Well only one of those is true, I have a loving family, I never got to succeed in high business because my high up business is my family it takes a lot to run it. And no matter how much there will be times I would like to hide or run away from the craziness, I will never do so. That's what makes family family....running a family is like running a business. You have appointments to keep, errands to run, bills to organize, you have to barter with your clients and win them over and be the one to be won over. It's wonderful and stressful all in one.
You see I haven't reached my weight loss goals yet, but I know one day I will. It takes more than one day to gain the weight, it will take more than one day to take it off. But I have achieved having my family that I always wanted. I will always wish family life is a little bit easier, or that we could afford family vacations, or afford my husband to take a couple weeks off of work just to hang out together. Or that we could afford family night outs or even night outs as a couple more often. But we can't, so we have movie nights in, or run through the sprinkler in the yard, or head to the local beach for an afternoon. But it's all smiles. When you look at the goals you didn't reach, don't worry about them so much. Just remember and appreciate all the goals you have reached. Can you do more today than you could yesterday, last week, last month or last year. I know I can say, yes I can!!! And it makes me smile. I wouldn't have anything any other way.
So re-evaluate your goals, and remember even so much as being able to go to the grocery store without getting winded is a NSV, or being able to carry your toddler up and down a soccer field is an NSV, a wedding ring that you can wear again or is now loose is an NSV. Being able to wear a size down on pants or a shirt is an NSV, being stronger mentally as well as physically is an NSV. Completing 1 sit up, or 1 pull up or 100 is an NSV, being able to mow your yard in one sitting is an NSV....the list goes on. NSV's are just as important as the numbers on the scale. Even if you gained a few pounds, but you lost inches just remember muscle weighs more than fat. So you must be getting stronger. I chose the article above from Sparkpeople, because it just reminded me of many things I can do and couldn't despite not reaching my goals. And I hope all of you remember that as well.
Have an awesome weekend Spark Friends. And remember to celebrate the little accomplishments too.