I am still a success
Saturday, June 22, 2013
This was an awesome blog by SparkPeople. I swear sometimes I think SparkPeople is psychic. Maybe they see my tracker and think...hmmm...she's kind of waning here, maybe she needs some motivation. Maybe it's divine intervention. Who knows? Whatever the case, this blog was so timely because I haven't felt successful this week. It's been a crazy, stressful week and feels like at times things are falling apart and I hate that. I'm to the point where I feel it when I don't eat healthier and take care of myself like I should. I get tired, lose energy, and then my work outs suffer and that starts a downward spiral. My daughter must be getting ready for a growing spurt because she has been ridiculously hungry. Anyone who has children knows what I'm talking about where you feel like you can't give them enough food to eat and wondering where this food is being stored because my daughter is a healthy, active little girl, but sometimes it seems like she eats more than me!
When she was in school, it was no big deal because home was 5 minutes away, but now she's in summer school and camp which is like 30 minutes away and that leads to a fight in the car because she is starving. Twice I had to break down and go to a fast food place. Ugh! Can I just say that with the budding awareness phase I'm going through, I despise fast food even more than I did before. All I can see is my fat and calories being blown out of the water and the food is not that great for the damage I'm doing. I'd rather have something cooked at home with lots of veggies and I'm thinking of starting to experiment with fruit desserts. Like I have this recipe for apple empanadas which would be much better than Taco Bells expensive treat. Where was the apples? LOL
This combined with the fact that I really need to hit the grocery store so I can restock my healthy favorites has made for a frustrating, stressful, draining week. Yesterday, I couldn't deal with it anymore. I told my daughter we need to come up with a game plan. I told her that we need to do a joint trip to the grocery store and find some things that she enjoys that will fill her up so we don't go through this next week. It's going to be a rainy day today so I'm thinking of cooking up food for the upcoming week so when we get home all we have to do is warm up a meal in the microwave so she can hang on for the 30 minute ride home because she won't be waiting long to eat once she gets home. There has to be a solution. Some kind of solution.
So I've been disappointed with myself for losing my steam so to speak, but after reading that article my mind reframed this week. I thought..."I'm still a success." I remember a time where I would succumb to all that and say, "Screw it. I will have to put aside my goals until school starts back up for her.", but I didn't! Instead I opened a dialog with my daughter about how important it is for Mommy to eat healthy and it's expensive to eat fast food so for economic and health reasons we need to come up with a game plan. I'm hitting this head on. I'm not lying down. I realize how important it is for me to eat healthfully and get activity. Especially today when I woke up earlier than I wanted to because I didn't feel good and been drinking water in the efforts to wake me up and give me some energy.
I used the SparkPeople workout generator so I could come up with a strength training workout I could do today and took a quiz to learn more about my fitness personality so I can take my pros and overcome my cons. I lean stronger one way, but there is one that is almost one behind and I can see that those two personalities do the things the results suggested. Not so much the first one because I do push myself. That's the problem. I sometimes push myself too far and then I get injured so I want to take care of that because it sucks all the fun out of my workouts, but I do find the cons of the other one because I'm fitting exercise into every free second of my day that sometimes I'm tired and burned out so that's why this week I did hit the library and signed up for the adult reading club so I relax with a book almost every night before I go to bed.
I'm reading a good archaeological book called Finders Keepers. I think that's how I was able to keep my sanity for this week. I plan on using some time tonight to relax and read it, but right now, I'm working on making breakfast, getting my shopping list completed, and get to the store. My mouth is almost salivating thinking of looking at fresh produce and getting some more frozen veggies and seeing if there are some fresh veggies in season. It's an exciting thing at my home to get fresh green beans in the summer time or corn on the cob and lately Caley has been eyeing up the broccoli and cauliflower and I've been passing it up but then I thought about how much I love it when I'm at a restaurant and get fresh steamed broccoli. I'm sure I could do just as good of a job cooking it. I can't imagine the expression on my daughter's face when I put a head in the bag and put it in the cart!
You know what? I think my body just perked up! Who would have thought the day would come when my granola bars and fruit bars would be looked at like there is nothing to eat in this house and longing for fresh fruit. Luckily, my dad did get me some fresh grapes recently so I have some in a bowl and rinsing in some water so I can have them for breakfast. My daughter is awake so just waiting for her to say it's time to eat and I'm not going to be sad about this week no longer. I'm just going to pat myself on the back for realizing what was happening and deciding to take action. Every day I make a choice to learn and continue with this journey is a success story in itself.