My fat connection
Friday, June 21, 2013
Talking to some family members at a recent family reunion,I was able to piece together some clues into myself.My food addiction being at the top of the list.My dad's mama was skinny and was ridiculed her lifetime.I was the same way so she decided to fatten me up so I wouldn't be ridiculed.It didn't work but she was determined every summer to make my life a living hell,not purposely though.Several of her grandkids came to spend the summer and they accused me of being her PET.She was tireless in her endeavor to fatten me up.My plate at mealtime would be heaped with food and sides of cake,pie,cookies.I literally hid from her!Grams was obsessed with making me gain weight.Fried chicken,Pork chops,steak,potaoes,dumplings,
yeast rolls,cake,cobbler,icecream and fudge were a daily buffet.I was singled out and picked on tirelessly by my cousins.I spent a lot of time crying and staying as invisible as possible.My Aunt said that my great and great-great grandmothers were morbidly obese.They passed down their pain through grams and made her feel like she wasn't like them.She was skinny but healthy.She didn't want me to feel the way they made her feel!I lost out on time with her because of it.Some point in my head I made a connection that I needed to gain weight in order to be accepted.Does any of this make sense?
My aunts and cousins sat me down and explained it and it finally made sense to me.