Friday, June 21, 2013
A few days ago I talked about my struggles and frustrations with my failures I have had time to reflect on what I wrote. Thank you my spark friends for the words of encouragement and support. I will not give up.
I realize that I have been setting myself up for failure by setting unrealistic achievable goals , expecting that I would achieve them without a struggle and knocking myself down as a failure without any of the compassion and understanding I give others. I am going to try and be kinder and more understanding of myself. I plan to set new goals, that are achievable. I will make some that are short range goals and some that are long range.
I plan to set down and plan what I will eat daily, with the knowledge that changes are ok.
Since I spend much of my time at my dads taking care of him I will plan meals that include eating at his home. This will probably make it easier for me since I see to his meals with my sister. He has had a severe weight loss in the last 6 months because of his Alzheimer's and it causes added stress to both my life and my sister's. My working together planning his meals we will be helping ourselves. By having healthier food available at his home I will not end up eating and snacking on so many hi caloric and unhealthy junk foods.
My sister and I both have poor self esteem problems and I believe if we can work together on his care and and help him gain so weight and get stronger it will help us also. I work with him on flexibility and strength maintenance but I do very little for my own fitness. I plan to use my time with him better by taking him for short outings that he will enjoy and benefit from it as I will also. Cathy usually joins us when we go outside and so it will benefit her also.
I realize I have been also setting myself up for failure by setting unrealistic weight loss goals. I will set shorter more realistic goals in that area also. Right now I new present weight loss goal is 5 lbs by July 15th. Will start tracking my foods again and start back to drinking my 10 glasses of water a day. These should be easily attainable goals if I plan and follow my plans.
I want to thank you my spark friends for your support, encouragement and continued motivation. I know that without your friendship I would have quit a long time ago. Now it is my turn to get up and get busy making life long changes to a newer healthier me.