Yesterday was a hard day regarding eating choices. I took my daughter and two of her friends to the mall for about 5 hours.
First up... lunch. I decided to go with a smoothie so I'd know exactly how many calories I'd be eating - 380. BUT... I thought it had lots of protein. It didn't!! In fact, it only had 1 gram! So, I was really eating LOTS of carbs. It also didn't have any calcium, which I also track. So, at the end of the day, I was very short on calcium, protein, and even fiber! But, I was proud of myself for keeping my calories under 400 for lunch and I enjoyed my meal.
A couple of hours later, the girls wanted Starbucks. I wasn't even hungry, so I happily sipped glass of water and felt proud of myself for not buying something when I wasn't hungry.
A few hours later, it was time to go. The girls saw an Italian place that serves handmade gelato made with all real ingredients. Well, I was VERY hungry! But, I knew I'd be in the car in a few minutes and could have a handful of almonds. I just got one sample bite, and tried a bite of my daughters, and didn't buy my own gelato. I really felt deprived and upset because I really wanted gelato! And my sample was SO GOOD! But, I went to the car and had almonds instead.
For dinner last night, my husband wanted to go out. We'd had the other two girls for two nights and now it was just the three of us. We were going out to a place where I usually have a grilled ham & cheese sandwich, often with onion rings. Well, I was ok about not ordering onion rings, but I really wanted my sandwich! Instead, I opted for a grilled chicken sandwich with ranch on the side (of which I'm great at eating very little). I felt so deprived and felt like life wasn't fair and understood why I've gained so much weight back in the past year and a half. I really can't keep making these kinds of choices! It just doesn't seem fair!!!
But, when my salad came, it was actually quite yummy. (I'm not much of a salad person.) And, I did GREAT staying within my calorie range yesterday.
So, how do you do it? When others are eating things you want to eat, do you feel deprived? Or do you feel proud of yourself when you make good choices?
I'm hoping for an easier day! I guess it'd help if I actually MADE dinner, huh?