week 22 & 23
Friday, June 21, 2013
It has been some 2 weeks!!. first week I was stuffing myself like there was no tomorrow and second week was the awakening to what I was doing.
Apparently I have a very bad reaction to getting in the 220's. It has happened to me almost 2 years ago. I had gotten to 225.8 and suddenly I started going back up. Mainly by stuffing myself.
Good thing is this time I saw it. So I am working on it. What is it that I am so afraid of? Maybe there is an event linked to that weight that I don't want to relive... maybe I am afraid I will fail and self-sabotage is a good way out since it gives me an excuse for failing. It wouldn't be because I can't but because I won't... Kind of weird but for now it is an explanation.
mmmm... food for thoughts.
If and when I do find the reason for this I will keep you posted.
Here are the numbers :
week 1 : 259.6 lbs
week 8 : 248.6 (now under 250)
week 18 : 239.6 (now under 240)
week 21 : 227.8 (now under 230)
week 23 : 232.6
gain for the last 2 weeks (4.8 pound)
Starting weight 1/1/2011 : 258 (-25.4)
weight when joining Spark weight 4/16/2011 : 231.3 lbs (+1.3)
lowest weight since starting all this : 225.8 lbs (+6.8)
Ultimate goal weight : 180 (+52.6)
1/1/2013 weight : 263 lbs (-30.4)
I'm still on track at least. my goal was 1 pound a week and I still have 30.4 pounds in 23 weeks. No time to quit. Besides the month still shows a loss so I'm doing ok.
On a another note, I have cut the second dress and should be able to finish it this weekend. Most of the vendors for the wedding have been hired. So all is moving along nicely. It is still a lot of work, but it will be a fantastic wedding. Can' t wait for it and the honeymoon!