Friday, June 21, 2013
Today was a really great day. Not just a great day, but a really great day. Ok, in reality it wasn't any more exceptional than any other day, but it felt like a good day.
For the past four days, I've been using the elliptical. I kind of hate it to be honest. I get bored really easily, and for some reason our elliptical squeaks so loud it actually drowns out the TV in the other room (maybe that was why we got it for so cheap). So yeah, I hate it, but I feel really good afterwards. I may enjoy walking and hiking a lot more, but I actually work up a sweat while I'm on the elliptical. Plus, it's a nice alternative to going outside while the entire state is one giant oven (I'm great with the cold, but I'm a wuss when it comes to heat).
Today I was lounging around post exercise (as you do) in my exercise clothes (as you do if it's close to dinner and you don't have time to shower and change first), and my mom told me I looked cute which prompted a conversation on how my fitness goals are coming along. It was pretty eye opening, because while I had noticed some improvements, I hadn't realized anyone else had. I have way more energy than I did when I started. For the first time since I started college the last time, I feel optimistic about my future. I don't feel nearly as ill as often. My anxiety is a lot better. My clothes are a little looser. So far I'm really glad I did this, and I'm really grateful to my doctor for recommending SparkPeople to me.
About the only downside is that when the anxiety gets better the ADHD gets worse; either that or when the anxiety gets better it stops obscuring the ADHD. Probably that latter one based on the articles I've read. At any rate, I've started to notice just how prevalent the symptoms are and just how many areas of my life they're affecting, so I thought I would check some books out from the library, thinking maybe they'd teach me some coping techniques. Something like 'hey, you have ADHD, here's how you should organize things' and 'hey, ADHD kids do better in school when they study like this'. Except all of the books I'm checking out are saying things more along the lines of 'hey, these strategies are great, but without medication most people just relapse'.
Long story short, I talked to my doctor and we've agreed I should go back on the medication. I'm a little concerned about how it's going to affect my weight loss efforts, but I'm choosing to stay optimistic. I would just really love to have the ability to sit down to finish a task and actually get it done without someone having to stand over my shoulder to insure I do it. I've spent my whole life that way; I'd like to be able to rely on myself for once.
Anyway, that is the state of the union, or the state of the Lynn, I guess. However have you.
I hope you guys are all having a great week!