Cussedness and determination
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Did errands and then went to the fitness center. Today was a major work out day. I sometimes decide to to a "light" workout and other days I do a "heavy duty or major workout"
I did 95 min. on cardio machines for 11.54 miles and 1034 calorie burn. This is not easy and it isn't meant to be. My trainer wants me down over 5 more pounds before the 9th of July. I am not weighing until then so I have to work out and track my food. I know to lose that amount I have to have 3 major workouts a week and two other light ones.
When I started I could not walk up the stairs from the first floor to the second at the fitness center so I had to use the elevator. I would never have been able to do even a fraction of what I did today. No magic just pure cussedness and determination. I was so angry at myself for letting myself get to that point. I had to overcome a lot of negative feelings I had toward myself and accept that I was good enough and I was worth the effort.
We all start where we are. Comparing what I can do to anyone else is a waste of time and energy. I do compare what I do against what I have done. It is nice to reflect on my progress.
I can not (at this time) do long walks, but I find something else to burn calories. A friend has a blood pressure issue and can not raise her pulse above a set amount. She uses a gazelle several times a day.I will find a way over, under,around or through those barriers . I must believe I AM WORTH THE EFFORT .