Thursday, June 20, 2013
Seriously. I have 40lbs to lose and I can't get the motivation to keep going. I'll get motivated for a few days and then throw my hands up in the air. I just can't do it anymore. Am I being negative on myself? No. But I want to keep going. I need to get back to eating healthy and exercising.
I'm saying f'it until Saturday and then I am going to try, AGAIN, to reboot. I need accountability or something. I don't know. I'm sitting down on here today and hardcore planning out my meal plan for the rest of the month. I haven't tracked my calorie intake on here in YEARS. I think it's time I need to try and get back to my roots. I've been stuck here hovering around 200 since November. I need to break free of it.
I don't know what to do but it makes me sad. Summer is so crazy. I get up at 7:45 in the morning and I don't get home until 8-8:30 in the evening, working two jobs. The worst part is I work in people's homes and JUNK FOOD IS EVERYWHERE. I no longer have willpower. And by the time I get off work at night, I really don't feel like working out.
Saturday I am going to get up, walk down to the local bookshop and order some books, walk home and then go to the gym. After that I'm going to Tribal Revolution that is happening here in Chicago and watch some awesome belly dancing. Rachael Brice is going to be there along with other famous dancers and I'M SO EXCITED! Then Sunday I am going to go to the gym again and perhaps go on a bike ride and make a meal to last me all week.
I just want to get back on track, and STAY THERE. :[