im just not seeing it.
Thursday, June 20, 2013
So I when I see myself in the mirror I don't see what others see. Its like my eyes are covering what I don't want to see or something. But I don't feel fat and I feel yucky or anything. I feel good and fine with my body. the only time I feel like I need to do something is when I see myself in a recent pictures. There I can see what I need to do. other than that I feel like I look fine. Is this why trying to lose weight and get healthy is so hard for me? I cant seem to stick with it. Every one says that after awhile you just get used to eating healthy. well I ate healthy and exercised for 3 whole months and lost 25-30 pounds and I didn't stick on it. it didn't come natural to me... so what am I doing wrong. Do I need to post fat pictures all around my house to remind me or what? counting calories writing down what I eat and all that stuff isn't working either. I cant find my own groove to this and its getting annoying! inside I know what I have to do but on the outside I'm just not seeing it.