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Remembering why we are here. Life.

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Sometimes we get so obsessed with weighing, measuring, running/waddling, fitting into smaller clothes...that other parts of our lives lose their glow. Sometimes, that glow distracts us from our goals also. How do we find a balance? I don't know the answer to that, except to say that staying present in whatever moment we find ourselves in will keep our goals with us without the obsessive thinking.

This evening my son's school had it's midwinter festival. The children had worked on their lanterns for weeks, while the older year 6 group readied themselves for their fire ritual where the school honours their moving on to a new stage in their lives.

The bonfire and lanterns were lit, and the soccer oval looked like a hundred fireflies were slowly dancing around in a spiral while children's voices rose and fell in hushed winter songs and chants, as they called in the light.

Us parents surrounded them and 'held them' in this magical space. I cried in feeling such a beautiful sense of belonging in this great community we have here.

This is life, and this is why I am here on spark, with goals of greater health. To live it more fully. To feel the ebb and flow of wonder. To live in the now, both easy and hard.

When I was deeply numbed out through binges I felt no connection to these things, to life itself. I had no sense of belonging to anyone except my own sense of pain and failure.

While I walked home in the dark, holding my son's hand, while telling him a story of a brave dragon, I realised I felt no distraction of physical unwellness/discomfort while walking up and down hills. I silently acknowledged my gratitude and nodded to my progress with satisfaction.


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EBPOOKIE 7/11/2013 4:08PM


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KELLIEBEAN 6/29/2013 7:12AM

    What a wonderful evening. I'm so happy for you. I got a little misty reading this.

You hit the nail on the head, we need to be present in the important moment in our lives.

By the way, happy national hug day!


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GOANNA2 6/21/2013 9:07AM

    Beautiful blog Jen. emoticon

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    A beautiful article Jenny and beautiful pictures. I an just visualize all the little children like fireflies. You have a gift with words! Your blog came at a good time for me as I struggle sometimes to remember life's purpose and my personal vision for good health when faced with stress and grief. Weight is just one small piece of the puzzle. It takes all the pieces to make it work! thanks for sharing! Sue emoticon

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    Sounds beautiful!

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EMMACORY 6/20/2013 11:27AM

    Jenny, it sounds like it was a wonderful ceremony. I love rituals as I think they move us into another space where we can "be" and as you said enjoy life. emoticon on your weight loss this week.

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DALID414 6/20/2013 11:24AM


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STRONG_SARAH 6/20/2013 6:59AM

    Wow, what kind of community is that? My son's school is nowhere near as cool.

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