Thursday, June 20, 2013
I had another randomly good day, and am happy to report I'm still on track. I barely even had any urges or anxiety at all today!
+ The one main anxiety-causing thing that happened today was misjudging that I knew the way back to work from our work "field trip" to a university lab. I noticed a small stress spike, but fortunately it was only because I would take longer than expected to get back to the office, not because I wasn't sure I'd figure out how to get back. The detour was long (it was a bad miss where you get sucked back onto the freeway for quite a while without an exit) but I didn't let it upset me too much. It turned out both my boss and mentor also had issues in figuring out how to get back! The exit we knew we wanted didn't allow us to turn onto the street we needed, as we all were banking on, so we each went our own funny way.
+ I'm feeling more part of the team at work and less tense around everyone. I'm feeling more comfortable asking questions and participating. This may sound kind of sad since I've been here almost a year, but it's taken that long!
+ I planned my day well so that I'd go straight to climbing from work to avoid traffic and to just put some more structure in my day, which really helps me not to use behaviors even just out of habit. I got to the climbing area early and did some reading before meeting the group at the scheduled time at 5pm. I climbed 2 routes and had fun!