Wednesday, June 19, 2013
So I have come to understand the harder I work the more I lose. We need to spread the word! All kidding aside what I don't understand is what took me so long to get this concept. I mean its something we are taught in kindergarten, you do the work you get the rewards. Now its hit me like a ton of bricks, the more squats I do the better my ass is going to look, if I plan out my meals I eat within my calorie range. I'm going on the 12th day of really sticking to my plans and I'm kicking butt over here not to toot my own horn but (BEEP BEEP). I have lost 17.2 pound and I find my self trying to find ways to do extra exercises through out my day just so when I weigh in on Sunday I will have to check it twice out of disbelief that I did that, that I ate better and worked out a little bit longer than yesterday.
But i have some thing I need to talk about and what better place to do it than here! A place were people like me have the same feelings, problems, and thoughts like me. Ok so here i go.
I have one of those really negative co workers, you know the kind, she is never happy unless she brings others down. Well lets just say I cant really count on her for any support. Her way of helping me is telling me if I want to lose weight I have to starve my self I can only have on baby food jar size of food a day!!! yeah CRAZY I know I don't listen to her. I work at a day care so its really not hard to fit in mini workouts and like i said before i try to do extras in my day but i catch myself not wanting to because i don't want her to see me, AND BEFORE ANYONE says "don't worry about what people think" or 'Who cares what she says" honest to God i don't most the time but when body part a moving and i pouring sweat and she is over there laughing or making snide comments, its kinda hard to not care a little. As a big girl i have gone my whole life acting like "oh i don't care what she thinks" but on the inside know she/he was a little right. Well back to my point i was mighty proud that i lost 17.2 pound and yes i tell people the .2 :) she (the grouch) was not impressed at all "that's water weight you will just gain it back in about a week or so" or " i give her 2 , 3 weeks max and she will give up" REALLY! who says stuff like that. why what is the point of bringing people down? If you are happy I'm happy with you, If you are sad I'm sad with you. It should not be the opposite. I will never understand why people in glass house throw stones. Don't get me wrong, I don't just sit there and let her talk crap i stand up for myself, I'm a grown up i speak my mind sometime a little to much. But i just don't see how laughing while i try to better my life is going to help me. People talk about fat people all the time but when they see them working out to not be fat its funny? I just don't get it.
Honestly i don't even know it this blog makes any sense, i just need to get this out of my head and see if any one has any advice on how to deal with her and her super negativity?