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Don't feel well & losing motivation

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

I have felt so blah in the past couple of weeks. On Monday, I was at the gym, working out and I had to stop after 15 minutes. I tried to keep going but my stomach kept turning. If my body tells me to stop, there is no way I am not going to listen. My side was also hurting and I thought it may be a bladder infection or something like that. Every time I go to the doctor for something like that, everything comes back fine. Well, the pain on my upper right side is very excruciating. Went to the doctor's. She ran a lot of tests. Everything came back normal. :( I wish I knew what was causing the side pain. It's hard to stand, or lay down. Sitting is okay but not much better. emoticon I miss feeling healthy consistently.

My family is always explaining to me how my eyes look "dull" and "different" and they always know when don't feel well. It is so frustrating. The doctor said that's prob because I get dizzy because I am anemic. I have been taken iron pills so I asked her to test my levels again. She said I am not anemic anymore. That is nice but you can see where that is frustrating.

I cannot exercise with this side pain. It's my upper back and side on the right side. This is the 4th day it felt like this. It hurts so much worse when I breathe in. Ouch! I had this pain before but it always subsided enough and it has never been this bad. When I don't feel well, I fall off the wagon. I care about my health but at the same, I would rather sleep off the pain than plan a healthy or healthier version of a meal.

I can't change doctor's either. I am on my dad's health insurance plan. I don't even know how much longer I am allowed to be on there anyway. It's just way too expensive. They raised the copay by $10 and what they charge monthly is just ridiculous. I have an appointment next month and then we'll cancel. I am not really too upset about it. I doubt I would have found anything else out and I am just grateful I was able to find out a couple of answers.

:( To the team challenges I am/was participating in, sorry I haven't been around. As soon as I am in less pain, hopefully, I will be able to actively participate.



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  • TWNOMWE
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    1263 days ago
  • LOSINGLINNDY
    emoticon I am so sorry that you are in so much pain. Don't worry about exercise for now but do weigh-in on the Titan's tomorrow. Try to do just that much. Our next challenge is all about drinking water which will be good for your condition.

    Be assertive with that doctor!
    1267 days ago
  • ERCELLAJS
    emoticon I don't know how old you are but you can stay on your dad's insurance until you are 26. Starting in October you might want to check out the exchanges to see if you qualify for subsidized health plan. But really compare because your dad's policy might be the best one.
    1267 days ago
  • CLAIRE_PM
    How awful. I've lived through similar problems, and I just found it terribly frustrating not to be able to do anything, and for the doctors not to know anything. I hope you get it worked out -- I know you just want some answers. emoticon
    1267 days ago
  • AMANDAUNBIDDEN
    I don't know what could be wrong but sometimes you just have to keep going back to your dr and bugging them about the same symptoms until they finally figure out what is wrong with you. You know your body and you know something is wrong. Don't let that dr send you away. Make them figure out what is wrong with you! You deserve to feel good and be healthy! emoticon
    1267 days ago
  • REENSKI
    Sorry you are not not feeling well-glad you are listening to you body.
    Is there a clinic or a walk-in or ER you can go to when the pain that bad?

    I hope things go better and you figure out what is going on soon.
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    1267 days ago
  • BEFIT016
    I hope you find some answers soon. I can see how that would be frustrating.
    1267 days ago
  • OKBACK2ME
    emoticon I think the Doctor should really be investigating this more. Yes I agree you need to listen to your body, maybe slow down and take short walks instead of going all out in the gym.
    1268 days ago
  • JINLYNN
    How very frustrating! I hope you feel better soon.
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    1268 days ago
  • 1STATEOFDENIAL
    Based on location, that could be kidney problems like a stone (but that pain doesn't normally last for days) or a gallbladder issue, in amongst other things. Try drinking more water (in case it's a kidney issue, extra water should help flush it out) and eating less dietary fat (in case it's a gallbladder issue, eating even healthy fats can cause problems). You might consider getting a massage, which would be helpful if it's from muscle strain.

    I agree with you that you shouldn't be pushing yourself through this pain; there's the 'sore from working out hard' pain and the 'something is wrong in the body pain'. Also, get copies of the tests your doctor has run in the last 6 weeks and review them yourself. Sometimes there's clues there. Doctors only look for numbers that are above or below the 'acceptable range', but usually miss if it's on the border of the range or even if it's not a portion of the test they were looking for. (For instance, multiple doctors missed that I had iron poisoning from being on birth control because they didn't look close enough.) If you don't understand the results, look them up online.

    One thing to remember: this is your body reacting to something it doesn't like. The physical symptoms are going to cause mental and emotional downturns that are secondary reactions. It's really hard to separate them, but keep reminding yourself this is your body not functioning properly, but you can still keep a healthy outlook for the future and know that you can get through this. Look at happy pictures, listen to music you enjoy, hug every person you care about, and be kind to yourself mentally. By keeping your mind in a happier place, it can help you get through this time.
    1268 days ago
  • 1EMMA2011
    There are so many things this could be. I wonder if you need a referral to see a neurologist or orthopedic doctor. Could be a slipped disk!

    I used to trust the doctors. Now not so sure...

    Be persistent and keep good records... this doesn't sound right to me what you are experiencing...

    Praying for you,
    1268 days ago
  • MELAMA210
    Hope you feel better soon emoticon
    1268 days ago
  • IACTA_ALEA_EST
    This will pass. Your determination to become what you might have been will prevail! You will find reserves you did not know that you possess. Take a deep breath and and affirm your heart desire.

    Have a blessed journey!
    1268 days ago
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