Wednesday, June 19, 2013
This has been a very difficult month for me in every way imaginable. I have been physically ill twice now (sinus/allergy/bronchitis issues). In fact, I am sick as I write this. I also have had some major problems that need to be repaired at the house. So, for the last few days I have been staying with my daughter. I am back for a few days anyway. Hopefully I will get those issues sorted out soon. I am really tired and weak physically and emotionally right now. So, its understandable that I am really down, right? That's what I keep telling myself anyway. I am pretty low on funds right now as well, given the repairs that I have had to pay for. That makes it really difficult for me to eat right. And to be honest, I haven't been doing that very well all month. Its no wonder I am up three pounds this week! That bums me out even more...... I want to regain control, but, don't seem to be able to for some reason. I know I need to be back here MORE. That would certainly be a step in the right direction. I hate when I do this to myself, but even more I hate when I KNOW I am doing it and can't seem to STOP the insanity!!
Tomorrow is another day... and I am determined that I will never give up trying to get healthy. I have to .........there's no other option!
Looming forever in front of me is the final hearing for my divorce. I am sure that is playing a part of my emotional state. I am beyond tired of all of this.. I am bone weary. I pray that God will give me the strength I need to push through all of this so I can rebuild my life that has been torn apart and left in shambles.
Please pray for me ... and thank you to all of you who read my ramblings, those who post encouraging words, and even those who read this and say a silent prayer for me. I appreciate your support more than words can ever say.