Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Ok...so today is the 3rd day in a row I am struggling with my anxiety. Not sure what is going on. It used to be I would have mild attacks due to money or worrying about stuff. But everything is ok right now in that area. Business is good, bills are being paid...ect!
Monday night I had the worst one I have had in a few years. Body shaking, not able to breath the whole nine yards. Yesterday and today I have felt very uneasy. After thinking about it and checking the calender I am ovulating. Hmmmm, connected? Also my lower back has been hurting the last 3 days too right where my adrenal glands are. Both something to think about and curious as to whether this is contributing to my panic.
I am pretty much just jotting down thoughts. I tend to forget and miss patterns. This is the first month though things have been like this if it is hormone related. We have had a few customers that I wonder if were satisfied. But not sure that would lead me to have full blown panic attacks.
Anyway, I don't have a place to really put down thoughts were I can find them again. so that is what this blog is. maybe as I go I can see a pattern to this. I'm functioning but it is hard not to freak out for no reason. And well then I just feel crazy.