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6/19/2013 Update

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Confession: I've been delaying an update because I have noticed a pattern of me reporting how good things are going only to have it all go to hell the next day or so..... *sigh* BUT, I have to have faith..... and I do.

Things have been going GREAT since I've last blogged about this stuff! Be has attended 2 AA meetings last week and we go again tomorrow. He really likes the Thursday group of men there. He bought the book. Yeah, that's huge. It was his idea too. He reads a little everyday, which is also huge because he really isn't much of a "reader".

He also spends time EVERY DAY on the 'I Hate Heroin' Facebook page. He talks about what he reads on there a lot. He seems to be really putting the effort into this this time. I actually feel like I have a partner in fighting this. That feels great.

He talks about God and praying and believing in his faith. I am so thankful. I prayed for literally years for Be to open his heart and allow God in to help him through this. It seems this prayer is being answered. :-)

He showed me a text he got from someone looking for a "hookup" this past weekend. He replied, "I'm staying away from the stuff. I'm 10 days clean and feel great!"

He has been leaving his phone lay around wherever. He NEVER left his phone out of his hand or pocket for so long. (Because I wouldn't hesitate to look through it any chance I got.) I do have to say though, that the fact that he leaves it out in the open has been enough for me. I haven't picked it up and looked through it once. These are things I'm working on too. Trust..... it's such an easy thing to lose and such a hard thing to regain.

He has shared with me a few stories about things he has done in the past. Things he kept from me, lied about. As hard as it is to hear, I love that he is opening up to me. I truly believe it helps him. He isn't trying to sugar coat anything. This sometimes feels like a slap in the face, but him being truthful with me is great. I'll take that any day!

So, I'm not naive enough to think that this thing is going to be an easy going ride, but I am soooo confident that we will make it through this. He is an amazing guy. We will get there, literally one step at a time. One day at a time.

Talk about amazing....... God. Right? I mean I feel like I am witnessing a miracle of sorts. It is simply mind blowing to see the work that He is doing in our lives. Wow. I am so very blessed. I thank Him every morning, every night and whenever I feel it throughout the day.

For now, things are wonderful. Our lives aren't perfect and never will be, but we are definitely in a better place today, than we have been in a long, long time.

Be is 14 days clean tomorrow. Thank you, God.
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  • TEKRU1
    Sounds like growth and very positive steps! So glad to hear!
    1698 days ago
    emoticon Huge smile maker sweetie.
    1715 days ago
  • 4CYNDI
    I am so glad that things are going better. It takes a long time to win over any addiction and what Be is dealing with is on a whole other level. I remember fighting my caffeine addiction and how it's taken me over 5 years and many, many tries. But this last time, in 2009 I conquered it for good. One day at a time, finding support and substitutes to help me through.

    Wishing you and yours all the best.

    1731 days ago

    So happy to read this! So glad things are turning around. i know it won't be easy but it will all be worth it! So happy for you!!!!!!

    1732 days ago
    Buying the book/ reading it is HUGE! Those 12 Steps are there for him and you both, sometimes one takes longer than another, sometimes you re-do but the thing is to not give up~ emoticon
    1732 days ago
    Good news. I'm glad that he is giving you signs that he is determined to beat this and that you are finding hope again. Looking forward to more positive blogs in the future. Good luck.
    1732 days ago
  • FUNGIRL81005
    emoticon emoticon One Day at a Time
    1732 days ago
    This is wonderful news! Sending you prayers that it will continue smoothly - that this is the RIGHT time for him to make permanent change.
    1732 days ago
  • LW8843
    One day at a time and it's great it sounds like you are both growing in your trust and faith. I think him talking about it is a good thing because if he suddenly stops you will know something is up. And talking about it might be helping him not use again!!!
    1732 days ago
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