Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Confession: I've been delaying an update because I have noticed a pattern of me reporting how good things are going only to have it all go to hell the next day or so..... *sigh* BUT, I have to have faith..... and I do.
Things have been going GREAT since I've last blogged about this stuff! Be has attended 2 AA meetings last week and we go again tomorrow. He really likes the Thursday group of men there. He bought the book. Yeah, that's huge. It was his idea too. He reads a little everyday, which is also huge because he really isn't much of a "reader".
He also spends time EVERY DAY on the 'I Hate Heroin' Facebook page. He talks about what he reads on there a lot. He seems to be really putting the effort into this this time. I actually feel like I have a partner in fighting this. That feels great.
He talks about God and praying and believing in his faith. I am so thankful. I prayed for literally years for Be to open his heart and allow God in to help him through this. It seems this prayer is being answered. :-)
He showed me a text he got from someone looking for a "hookup" this past weekend. He replied, "I'm staying away from the stuff. I'm 10 days clean and feel great!"
He has been leaving his phone lay around wherever. He NEVER left his phone out of his hand or pocket for so long. (Because I wouldn't hesitate to look through it any chance I got.) I do have to say though, that the fact that he leaves it out in the open has been enough for me. I haven't picked it up and looked through it once. These are things I'm working on too. Trust..... it's such an easy thing to lose and such a hard thing to regain.
He has shared with me a few stories about things he has done in the past. Things he kept from me, lied about. As hard as it is to hear, I love that he is opening up to me. I truly believe it helps him. He isn't trying to sugar coat anything. This sometimes feels like a slap in the face, but him being truthful with me is great. I'll take that any day!
So, I'm not naive enough to think that this thing is going to be an easy going ride, but I am soooo confident that we will make it through this. He is an amazing guy. We will get there, literally one step at a time. One day at a time.
Talk about amazing....... God. Right? I mean I feel like I am witnessing a miracle of sorts. It is simply mind blowing to see the work that He is doing in our lives. Wow. I am so very blessed. I thank Him every morning, every night and whenever I feel it throughout the day.
For now, things are wonderful. Our lives aren't perfect and never will be, but we are definitely in a better place today, than we have been in a long, long time.
Be is 14 days clean tomorrow. Thank you, God.