Wednesday, June 19, 2013
My rant for the day: My Job
Almost 33 years with the same company, several different jobs and a relocation three years ago, but this is the first time I am having this many doubts about my abilities. I ended up with this job, not by choice, but by downsizing. I was given little to no training (a little over a month). I was put in charge of people I had never even met and I still don't quite know their potential to do their jobs.
I work in the power industry where things can turn very dangerous in a second. Every day there is something breaking down and I am constantly "putting out fires". I feel sorry for the people working for me because they expect help when things go wrong and I don't always know the answer. All the people I could turn to have taken one of the last two severances. I so wish I could have too, but I am only 56 and in debt up to my eyeballs (due to the other things in my life that cause me stress...my children).
I do try my best to learn all the aspects of this job, but it is so overwhelming (and my old brain just doesn't learn like it once did). The whole process is so different than anything I have ever done. I talked to my bosses about all this several times, but they just want things to get done, but don't want to be bothered with the details...until something craps out, then it is 20 questions and why didn't you do this or that time.
I not only feel like a fish out of water, I feel like I am in the skillet getting ready to be dinner. I have too many years invested to walk away, so I will try and make the best of it. My goal is to play whatever stupid new game the company comes up with to play, get through the shift, try and keep the plant running, and no one get hurt.....and not get fired for anything that might happen during my watch.