Wednesday, June 19, 2013
I really have come a long ways! I remember a time when I didn't love my body and as I took the spark quiz about whether or not I had a healthy image, I surprised myself how far I've come. Like I remember a time when my answer to one of the questions was about goal weight and I remember when my answer would be a specific number...like what I was in high school. Then when I remember when I relaxed a little and said healthy BMI, and now I'm to the point that, "Hey...when I was just slightly overweight and Caley was a year old, I felt pretty good." To me...the weight no longer matters anymore. I just want to be healthy and no that I'm doing things to help my body.
I made my appointments for my shoulder and physical. I'm nervous because last time I went I was in a prediabetes stage, but found out that was 2 years ago. What the heck happened to last year's physical? I usually do these things like clock work so I have mixed emotions about that. On one hand, I'm nervous because I could have full blown diabetes now and not even know it. On the other hand, I exercised a lot last year, have made a lot of healthy changes since that physical so maybe I'm still in that phase or heading towards normal. I don't know. All I do know is I want to do the tests before I see her so I can have a real dialog with her. I just want to be healthy.
My shoulder appointment is next month and also nervous about that. I do not want surgery, but I got to bite the bullet and find out. I can't be paralyzed with fear. I need to always be walking boldly forward, but knowing that I reached an important goal, finally having a healthy image about myself where I accept the way I look, am being more aware of myself and my lifestyle and trying so hard is a nice perk!