Wednesday, June 19, 2013
The last couple of weeks have been slow - no weight loss at all happened. I tracked my calories (had a few bad days) and worked out, and stayed at the exact same weight. One big setback for me was starting a big cooking project without taking into consideration the fact that I'd just worked out and hadn't eaten - halfway through the cooking I was hit with hunger, and I ATE. I ate whatever was there. So much so that I couldn't possibly track my calories consumed, and when I tried to, I figured I'd gone over 2,000 for the day. I felt it, too. It was such a heavy, full feeling. it occurred to me that this used to be my normal! I would eat standing in the kitchen, and I would eat till I wanted to burst. That was when I stopped. It felt weird to re-visit my old ways. I started beating myself up over it, but realized that that's also an old way of doing things.
I tossed the negative thoughts, accepted my choice to binge eat, and moved on. It was one of those moments that reminded how important it is to have a plan, an idea of the bigger picture in my mind, so that I don't crash into moments that set me up for failure.
It was also a reminder of how powerful positive thoughts are. It actually takes work - the negative thoughts are way easier for me to fall onto. Just like standing in my corner in the kitchen and binging is easier than stepping back and focusing on the simple, healthy alternatives. Both take planning. Both take work. Both take commitment. And both become easier and more second nature with time.
So along with tracking food, I'm tracking the way that I think - banking my positive thoughts down the way that I do calories ~