An effort to be kind to myself
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
I won't lie. These are difficult times for my family. If it were in my power, I would scrap this year completely. "Things could be worse", really has to stop being my go-to expression because it seems I find they can in fact be worse. We have a roof over our heads, clothes on our back, and food in our bellies. There is a good chance, no matter how things go with my oldest, that will continue to be true.
With that in mind, I am trying to focus on some of my accomplishments of late. Ran my first 5K. Particularly because of the knee injury during training, this is pretty big. Went ziplining for the first time. True, it was a 6 second ride, but it was free and I got to try it. I don't know how big a deal actually doing it was since it was something I've always wanted to try anyway, but anything new, deserves recognition I think. The bigger"atta girl" goes for managing to get in some exercise every day when the truth of the mater is that I have zero desire to even get out of bed in the morning. I do though. I get up, I go to work, I behave as pleasantly as the environment allows. During the day, I contend with whatever fresh new Hell is sent my way in as productive a manner as I can. When I finally get to a down time, the last thing I want to do is work out even for 10 minutes - but I have. I've also managed to eat, which I know for some, might seem odd to be proud of, but I have trouble eating when I am stressed, so for me, it's good.
I will not whip myself for snapping at people who seem to be doing their best to annoy me. I won't berate myself for not doing more. I won't beat myself up for feeling badly.