Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Okay so I was only going to blog once a day but I need to work out my feelings.
I start therapy tomorrow. With a MAN! Who's in his 70's
I live in a small town and he was the only available therapist that took my insurance.
I haven't been in therapy since 2002 when I had the most awesome woman I have ever met next to (you know who you are Florida Sunshine).
I'm nervous I'm gonna put my childhood pain out there and and he'll just say something like Hum!
I have issues with trusting men I think.
My dad and I have had very very few real conversations. He's either screaming or showing me pictures of baby animals on his email. I live next door.
My four engagements I've had with men in my life I backed out of.
The only males I've felt comfortable with in my life have been gay.
I guess this therapist could be gay but that would be unusual for this area of the Oregon boondocks.
I'm just nervous but I know I need therapy at least at this point in my life.
Maybe I'll start with my issues with men. That would be honest.
If anyone feels like sending me positive vibrational energy tomorrow Wed, noon PST I would gladly accept it.