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Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Okay so I was only going to blog once a day but I need to work out my feelings.
I start therapy tomorrow. With a MAN! Who's in his 70's
I live in a small town and he was the only available therapist that took my insurance.
I haven't been in therapy since 2002 when I had the most awesome woman I have ever met next to (you know who you are Florida Sunshine).
I'm nervous I'm gonna put my childhood pain out there and and he'll just say something like Hum!
I have issues with trusting men I think.
My dad and I have had very very few real conversations. He's either screaming or showing me pictures of baby animals on his email. I live next door.
My four engagements I've had with men in my life I backed out of.
The only males I've felt comfortable with in my life have been gay.
I guess this therapist could be gay but that would be unusual for this area of the Oregon boondocks.
I'm just nervous but I know I need therapy at least at this point in my life.
Maybe I'll start with my issues with men. That would be honest.

If anyone feels like sending me positive vibrational energy tomorrow Wed, noon PST I would gladly accept it. emoticon

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    Sending you positive energy. Arlene ......... emoticon emoticon
    1736 days ago
    I am sending best vibes to you. Maybe this person is just who you need to work out the "man issues" with. I know I have seen different therapists over the years and each one had a different insight and was able to bring a different view to the issuesI was trying to work out.

    1736 days ago
    As of this time, you should have seen your therapist. I hope that you liked him. Of course, you cannot judge him on your first visit so just give it a chance. I've been to several therapist and I think that even if you feel there is no connection there it just feels better to let it all out. Good luck to you and I wish you peace!

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    1736 days ago
    HERE'S YOUR POSITIVE VIBE, Mama!!! :-))))))))))))
    You are ALWAYS exactly where you are supposed to be, Arlene...or else you would be somewhere else.
    Good for you for taking this step! I'm ROOTING for you, Girly!!! You got this!

    love you so!
    1736 days ago
  • CELTIC1966
    All the best my friend tomorrow with going to the Therapist I hope you soon feel at ease I think that is good advice above by starting off with wee things and see how you feel about how he reacts to them.

    Take care you and remember you are strong emoticon
    1736 days ago
    I have been in therapy off and on for various reasons. One thing I know is try not to judge the therapist before you get there. You seem like you are already getting worried about his reactions and you don't know him.
    Also, for me, I didn't tell a therapist the "big things" until I felt really comfortable. I don't trust easy so sometimes it took a while. I had "little problems' that I went over first to see the reaction of the therapist.
    Good luck and I hope you like the therapist and that he can help you!

    1736 days ago
    Good luck and he will be fine
    1736 days ago
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