Disgusted, Disappointed, Determined
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
This is a downer blog but its how I am feeling:
Disgusted: I am disgusted on how I look...I put back the 30lbs I busted my butt losing...
Disappointed: I am disappointed that I let other things sabotage what I worked so hard for and lost all motivation and just stopped caring.
Determined: I am determined to get back into shape and not go down the destructive path I was on.
I am on week 3 of the gym. I have been going 4 days a week. I am increasing that to everyday. I have to. Yes, I am pushing myself but on the days I go, I feel better, sleep better and have been making better food choices. Plus, my bp stays around 110 now compared to 180 before. It is harder this time to get back into the exercising but I realized today in class, I am also 5 years older than when I first started at the gym. Sorry for the negativity, just needed to vent....