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Disgusted, Disappointed, Determined

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

This is a downer blog but its how I am feeling:

Disgusted: I am disgusted on how I look...I put back the 30lbs I busted my butt losing...

Disappointed: I am disappointed that I let other things sabotage what I worked so hard for and lost all motivation and just stopped caring.

Determined: I am determined to get back into shape and not go down the destructive path I was on.

I am on week 3 of the gym. I have been going 4 days a week. I am increasing that to everyday. I have to. Yes, I am pushing myself but on the days I go, I feel better, sleep better and have been making better food choices. Plus, my bp stays around 110 now compared to 180 before. It is harder this time to get back into the exercising but I realized today in class, I am also 5 years older than when I first started at the gym. Sorry for the negativity, just needed to vent....
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    I feel the exact same way. I am in your corner, cheering you on. We know we can do this. You are doing great. Keep it up!! emoticon
    1439 days ago
    We're here to support you and venting is just fine! Hang in there! emoticon
    1440 days ago
    Keep your momentum going, and don't let others get in your way. I have to tell myself that EVERY day. My boyfriend wanted to hang out with his brother and niece yesterday and play Tennockey (a combo of tennis and hockey) and it just wasn't fast paced enough for me, so we ended up going to the park to play some real tennis. I HAVE to get my exercise in now, and I can't let other people get in my way, and neither can you!

    YOU DESERVE EVERY MINUTE AT THE GYM especially when you know it makes you feel better. emoticon
    1440 days ago
    There is nothing wrong with venting sometimes and it can really help to refocus and get back on track too. This blog really resonates with me because I am in the exact same place you are...even down to having put the 30 lbs I lost back on, plus 5 more. I'm just now getting back on track and doing what it takes to be healthy again and it sounds like you are as well. Good luck and if you need anything, just drop me a line!
    1440 days ago
    Great to vent! Good luck!
    1440 days ago
    I love "ven-teers" It's what the body and mind need clean out all the toxic stuff that a bad choice or two left behind.!
    In fact you're not just cleaning your house but showing lots of us how to clean ours ; )
    Great choice getting back to the gym. Your on your way forward!! emoticon
    Thanks for sharing,

    1440 days ago
    We can't be "patty perfect" every day. There are down days, weeks, months and then we make a decision and get back on track. You have done that.

    You may have started negative but you turned positive, you hare determined, you are already headed in the right direction. I'd call this a win!

    Keep going!

    1440 days ago
    emoticon emoticon on getting back to the gym and all the effort you are putting in. emoticon
    1440 days ago
  • CHERIJ16
    I have been slipping up lately and have gained a couple of pounds. Your blog made me realize that if I keep doing this I will also gain back my 30 pounds and be disgusted and disappointed in myself. Thanks for the reminder. I am determined to keep this weight off.
    Don't be too hard on yourself. It's easy to do but you are back on track and that's a good thing! emoticon emoticon
    1440 days ago
  • KITT52
    change the tapes in my mind....yep you slipped up .....but your not a bad person...learn to love your self no matter what your weight....and then work hard to get back to your goal....

    this can be a struggle for the rest of your life, never ever give up

    1440 days ago
    I find that venting helps me to deal with all the things I'm going through. I think it's wonderful that you're going to gym and remaining determined! Here's a hug, and remember, you can do it! emoticon
    1441 days ago
  • NEWME1027

    1441 days ago
    You're not alone! And sometimes we have to vent to hear ourselves more effectively! Congratulations for getting back on track! You are determined - you WILL do this! Keep on sparking! emoticon emoticon

    1441 days ago
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