My emotions want to be all over the place this week, but I'm keeping a lid on the pot that wants to boil over. This is how I have been managing this very emotional time by the grace of God:
I call out the edible emos by name and evict them with positive thoughts, actions, reframing of ideas, and forgiveness.
The devil is a liar, and the father of lies, according to the Word of God, and i know I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and He is working overtime with me right now!
It seems this week that even friends are pushing buttons, and I've had to do a lot of quiet forgiveness, trying to realize that my emotions are very fragile right now and I could end friendships very easily, so I pray and surrender the problem to God, and don't pick up the first edible thing that I see. That's like the first step to success.
Through this, I'm beginning to learn how not to be so reactive to people, places and events. It's a hard lesson for me, but I'm trying to back off, take time to breathe, and reconsider the moment using some of the above tactics.
Above all, I'm staying focused on tracking my food, both on paper and on Spark.
Even yesterday, my sweet neighbor, who is my own personal cookie monster, brought her usual tray of bakery cookies
, and A BOX OF CHOCOLATES
She also brought me comfort on my late daughter's birthday, along with a beautiful glass vase and an assortment of roses for my upcoming birthday. I have to say, these blessings came on the heels of my forgiving a couple of friends who caused me quite a bit of distress earlier that day. I didn't react, stepped back, and maintained my calm, trying to see all sides of the dilema. It's so hard learning new behaviors, but how can we learn unless we are presented with the old problems on which we can try out our new behaviors?
And lest I forget to mention. the candy went right in the fridge, unopened, as soon as my neighbor left, and after enjoying a minimal amount of cookies, (LESS THAN 10, HaHA) they were repackaged and put in the freezer. My plan is to donate the goodies somewhere in the next few days, because I don't know just how long I can hold out! My prayer today is for the Lord to show me who to give the goodies to. Sorry, but I'm not up to the part yet where I can throw away such lovely gifts! Maybe next year this time!!