I've been struggling....HALT!
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Hey peeps. In my pledge to myself to blog about the good and the bad...here I am. I'm on Day 15 of my 4th 21-day cycle...and I've been struggling
Big time! It started on Day 4...I'd had a really hard week of work, and I went home that Friday, lay on my sofa, and ate things that are NOT on plan. This slip continued for Days 4 through to 14...AND I'VE HAD ENOUGH! I'm hitting 'HALT' 'STOP' 'PAUSE' whatever!
How can I go from celebrating my 30 lbs lost, and then just 2 days later I'm slipping!? What is that even about? Real self-sabotage. No, I don't think I'm scared to reach my goal weight...I am EXCITED to reach my goal weight. And I'm SO close...closer than I've ever been. Am I complacent? Nope, I don't think it's that either. I've really been working on the mental aspect of this weight loss thing and I know and accept that this is something I'll be working on and being mindful of the rest of my life, and I'm cool with that too. Bored? Maybe I got bored. I don't know how though; I've been creating new recipes, and really enjoying it all. Lazy? That sounds like it could be it (sorry, I'm just thinking 'out loud' here!). Yeah, I think I got lazy. Days 4 through to 14 I worked out a total of ONE time! ONE! There is a whole row of red shading on my workout spreadsheet now, and 10 days of no stickers on my calendar
So anyway, I'm actually done. 10 days and enough is ENOUGH. I mean it. You won't hear me coming back here tomorrow saying 'slipped up again guys'. I irritate myself when I do that, and who wants to irritate themselves?! I'm not starting back at Day 1 either...I'm on Day 15 of 21 (which is 78 of 84) and I'm powering on. Like I said, my 21-day cycles are not about being perfect; it's a journey of learning, being mindful and not giving up, and I haven't done that. I'll never do that. Pinky promise.
So yes, this has been my least successful 21-day cycle so far. The first 3 cycles were spot on; like Woubbie said, maybe I needed this 4th cycle as a 'catch-my-breath'. Well, my breath has been caught, I'm getting back on track
(I'm back in London with internet so back to Sparking. Last week I was in no mans land with no access to the 'net and it was so annoying! Need to catch up on what everyone's been up to x)