Tuesday, June 18, 2013
I haven't had much time to blog on here but I want to use this free moment!
I've been slacking - the gym hasn't seen me in a month and that's something I hate to admit. This job with orientation is a lot more demanding over those three days than I thought. I know I can't go to the gym on Wednesdays and Thursdays for sure, but I have found that Friday I'm out by about 4pm and I can make time to do so then. So, I still have five full days I can go to the gym, making Wednesday and Thursday my days off.
I'll admit it - I haven't made as much time as I could/should to workout on those days because I'm being lazy and I'm also tired. But I don't want to be those things anymore. I feel like crap a lot and I stuff myself with crap and continue to be lazy and tired and it's an endless cycle. I woke up this morning pissed about some other things going on in my life (I have a terrible relationship with my parents, we don't speak, and I had to call my mother for something to do with medical records today...blech) and just wanted control over something again. I remembered how much I love losing weight because working out and what I eat are two things that directly contribute to a goal I set for myself.
So now, I'm back on the wagon firmly. I'm not going to talk about it too much other than on here - that's when I get distracted. I don't want to SAY what I'm going to do. I want to DO what I'm doing and let it be that.
My arms are flabby again and my tummy is not tight. My legs aren't are steel-like as they used to be and that's just gotta stop. So, now it will.
I don't know what else to say, I've already said too much. If you wanna know my progress as of today, check the page where my weight is sadly up to be seen lol. I want to be honest though - again, with myself and everyone else. That way, there's some accountability.