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Operation Distract Brain

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

You know all of those times when you’re anxious or stressed and you just want to be bad but you should really occupy yourself? That is what I’m doing now. Distracting my brain!

I worked SO HARD last week on this presentation that some of my team members are delivering as I type this in another state. I’m not there, so I can’t see how it is going, but that isn’t stopping me from sitting here all anxious waiting to hear how it goes. I got them to try a few new things and I sincerely hope that this goes well for them. Aghhh.

I am SO off today. Maybe it is my brain and this nervousness, but I got off to a rough start. I woke up at what I thought was 6:45 am. I even said “OH SH&T” out loud because I thought I was late. I rush into the bathroom, get all dressed for work, go to check my phone to see if I was really that late and it says… 5 am. At this point I blink my eyes a few times, mess with my phone for a second to see if I’m right – and I realize I am now fully dressed and made up for work at 5 in the morning. I did have a moment where I considered going to the gym that early but I was like man, I look all nice right now, nope. So I went out to the couch and fell asleep for another hour and now I have that groggy “I panicked, and then took a nap, and now I’m at work” feeling.

Yesterday I only squeezed in 30 mins on the treadmill. I could have easily worked through lunch because I had a lot going on, but I stood up for myself and went. I have a confession – sometimes when the treadmill seems like the last thing I want to do on this planet, I put on Netflix, churn up the speed, and just walk at a good pace for as long as I can stand. I know it probably isn’t the BEST form of workout… I sometimes feel guilty like I’m not focusing or pushing myself enough, but it DOES get me to stay on the treadmill for longer so that should be worth something right?! ANYWAYS - My latest Netflix adventure is Doctor Who. If you’ve ever been on Pinterest, you know that there is a HUGE amount of people obsessed with this show, so I decided to give it a try. The episodes are about 40 mins long so I strive to keep up a good walk for an episode’s length if I can. Well I put on an episode yesterday that had me almost openly crying on the treadmill. I was shocked! I did NOT expect a show to make me cry, especially only like the 8th episode of it that I’ve watched. I just don’t get emotional over TV shows like that. And at the gym?! Who am I?!?!?!

I came home from work yesterday and realized both BF & I forgot that the energy company was coming to evaluate our apartment. They installed new shower heads, sink faucets, energy efficient light bulbs, etc… I am sort of in love with the new light bulbs, they “warm up” and start softer so I don’t get blinded like I used to first thing in the morning going into the bathroom. They give my eyes time to naturally adjust. The showerheads on the other hand… I SWEAR my hair feels dirty today. I don’t think it got my hair stuff washed out very well. Wah. Anyways, I decided to do a deep clean of the bathroom after work and I’m even a little sore today. I still say good cleaning is a form of exercise, I know I really scrub and get those muscles going! After that, I made a new pinterest recipe for spicy shrimp quesadillas. I used gluten free wraps and reduced fat cheese, and I baked them instead of pan frying them. They went over really well and I think next time I will pile even more veggies in them. Yum!

Besides that, I am now struggling with my mother. I suppose she’s panicking now that my sister has moved away and married. She’s becoming hyperfocused on me and I am already feeling it. I know I’m the one closest to her now, but my goodness! She asked us out to dinner the past three days. Each time I try explaining to her how I have healthy meals planned at home and have things to take care of around the house, and I know she does too. I think she’s just trying to occupy herself but what she really needs is a hobby, not my attention. Now she’s asking me to go to the mall and I’m just like – you need to relax. Her anxiety is making ME anxious.

…On top of my work anxiety. So I suppose you could say I’m a tired, groggy, sort of spaced out anxious mess today? Aren’t you glad you’re the sparkfriend of a crazy chick?!?!?!

Anyways – gym time will have to do indoors today. It is getting dark and ominous looking outside yet again. Maryland is definitely NOT in a drought these days. I’m surprised we’re not all kayaking to work. I have a gluten free beef meal planned for tonight. I always start with good intentions, I REALLY want to make this a good week. I’ve got new batteries in the scale and I intend to put them to good use! What are YOU focusing on and doing this week? I love to hear your stories!
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    It's a tough week for me. Very busy with work and studying.

    Additionally, I talked with one of my oldest friends and we decided that we really missed each other and it's time to try and hang around more. There was a misunderstanding about a year ago and we both overeacted. There wasn't a fight, but things got cold between us. After 1 year, I guess we both re-evaluated the situation and we talked about it. Seems that everything is solved. I only asked her to talk directly to me and not wait for 3 months to tell me what is wrong. She asked me to never forget that although we are friends, we are not the same people and what seems right to me may be wrong for the others. Seems a good deal to me :)

    But during the week I went out 2-3 times with various friends and I ate a bit more. Not over-over-eating but I wasn't as good as I could be. I love House of Cards on Netflix. I know about Doctor Who but it's too many seasons for me to start...

    Thumbs up for trying to distract yourself from food! Getting up earlier than necessary is a nightmare! At least you were able to get a nap!

    Be patient with your mum... I'm an only child and I can understand what it means to be in the spotlight of parents. When you feel like saying "GET A LIFE!" (yes, it's gonna happen many many times!) just talk to her and explain that you need air to breathe although you still love her very very much. Always finish the conversation with how much you love her emoticon .

    1709 days ago
    The mom portion made me laugh, I have definitely experienced that with my parents and other people's parents too. The treadmill workout absolutely counts - I got through entire seasons of dexter that way.
    1712 days ago
  • SLEE103
    Don't negate your efforts!! watching a show on the treadmill is a totally viable form of exercise, in my book, you are moving! remember my blog about my buffy exercise game, maybe you can even work up to something like that!

    your shrimp quesadillas sound so yummy! As for your mom, mine is the same way. unfortunately, her habit is facebook. lucky for me (I didn't say that...) its my sister who gets the brunt of occupying her time because they live closer and I don't think shes accepted I willingly moved so far away. Also, she recently asked me what I want sent to me, either cookies or brownies and I put my foot down. sometimes you just gotta do it. Anywho, it's just that they care and want to spend time.

    This week I am focusing on sticking to week one of my 5 wk fitness plan, two barre classes, physical therapy, and some Jillian Michaels dvds thrown in there for good measure. I don't have a meal plan this week but I've stocked up on good food so hopefully ill be able to pull easy and healthy meals together (or make the bf do it since I have a hard time on the days i have barre and pt).

    Wow, sorry for the novel lol. Lets make it great! you got this!
    1712 days ago
    Ooh, soft lights sound nice! My mom went through the same thing when I got married. I am the baby of the family and I think it hits moms hard when their children have big life events like getting married off. It will last for a while until she gets used to the idea of your sister being away. ;)
    I hope your day begins to come into focus for you. I hate foggy headed days like that.
    1712 days ago
    Sounds like you have to get your Mom a new hobby! Stitch-n-b*tch (group quilting/sewing)? Swimming/aquafit? A mall-walking group? Book club? Photography/cooking class? Hmmmm...

    I am all about distractions, all the time!
    1712 days ago
    Working out to Doctor Who is THE BEST. but it will make you cry. It's my faaaavorite show. Along with Torchwood, you have to check that out too.
    1712 days ago
    Um.... I LOVE WORKING OUT TO DOCTOR WHO EPISODES!!! I'm all caught up to the current season so I don't know what to do with my time. LOL! I'll be watching Torchwood next, which is a spin off from Doctor Who (you'll get to those episodes eventually emoticon )
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