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Monday, June 17, 2013

Why is it so easy to lie to ourselves? You'd think that it would be impossible right? You know yourself so well, but yet you can brainwash yourself into thinking that something isn't true when it clearly is. Not being truthful with yourself can go two different ways. On one hand, you can be completely oblivious to what you are putting into your mouth and say, "Oh this won't affect me." Or you can be very self critical and say things like, "I'm sure I gained ten pounds this week." or "I look fat and ugly"

All of these phrases are things that I said to myself this week. The first was towards the beginning of the week, the latter two were towards the end when I realized that the first statement wasn't truthful. That seems to be another common flaw with many people. That all or nothing mentality. One way or the other. So many people (self included) pick one of the two extremes and never fall somewhere in the middle. At first I was oblivious to truth (That candy bar is no big deal, it won't affect me) but then I jumped to the extreme of, "I gained ten pounds!" That is so far the other way it is almost baffling.

So here is the truth. That candy bar and many other mindless decisions did affect me. Many little decisions add up to bigger consequences. Another truth- I did gain weight. I gained one pound. That means that over the past month I have gained 4 pounds. A pound per week. It is time to break that cycle and begin to lose. Even if its just a half a pound per week. Any movement of the scale in the right direction is a good one.

How am I breaking this cycle of weight gain? Well, one of the first things I did was create a couple of groupings to make my choices easier. I have two plans for breakfast. Peanut butter toast and a banana or eggs in olive oil, toast, and honey. I also have a group for my morning coffee. Today I had the PB toast. I haven't created any lunch groups yet because I intend to have the eggs and toast for lunch. These two groupings are the best for me. An easy quick go to meal that I can have at any time of the day. Whether I am at home or at my friends house I am sure to be able to have my planned meal (Except at my friends house I have to remember to only have 1 slice of toast instead of two cuz they always get the higher calorie bread. Its a lot bigger though so its almost the same as having 2 slices of the 100% whole wheat the I get. I think they get the arnold's honey oat or something like that. Its like 110 per slice. At least its not white bread.)

Another small choice I made. My best friend is coming over today. She is planning on stopping at the Wawa for treats. I requested a skinny cow candy bar or a dark chocolate one rather than my usual king size twix or reeces. So, treats still allowed, but healthier choices.

Oh- and yesterday (I didn't track this though...naughty, naughty) my family and I went out to eat. We went to Hardee's so I of course burned through a lot of calories as we had a coupon for buy one, get one Jim Beam Thickburger (We request it with no bacon of course). We also had onion rings and chicken tenders for the kids. My husband ordered the largest chicken tender though so that there was enough so we could each have one as well. (it was a hilarious night- my 2 year old son decided that since his chicken strips were gone and he had bbq sauce left that he would drink the bbq sauce) Anyhow, the good thing was that we went to this frozen yogurt shop called YoKool. There were all sorts of lo cal options and all the calories were listed on the board. We just all shared, so I don't know what the calories were, but my husband and I were talking about going there on a date night without the kids. So, I am excited about choosing a healthier dessert.
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MARIARISS 6/17/2013 1:33PM

    This sounds so much like me! I was in denial till I entered my info on sparkpeople and it told me I was obese. Now I'm trying to fix it. I was so upset when reality hit me in the face. Today is my first day so I have a long way to go. Thanks for sharing! This helped me clear a few confusing thoughts in my head.

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ANGEL32192 6/17/2013 1:05PM

  It's so great to see that you see where you need to make changes and are working towards doing that! It's hard!
I really enjoyed reading your honest blog!!! Thank you! :-)

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