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Our Resistance

Monday, June 17, 2013

I didn't sleep very well last night. I woke up around 2 AM and didn't fall back to sleep until around 4 AM. When I rolled out of bed about an hour ago I had one of those "not enough sleep headaches," coupled with the nagging and persistent feeling that this was going to be a really long day. I did what any other rationale human being would do in a case like this ---- I got angry. I HAVE A LOT TO DO TODAY!!!! I feel crummy, my head hurts --- Pass the bin of nails for me to chew upon, please.


I sat down to do my morning meditation and the soft and gentle voice that guided me talked about letting go of our resistance -- To scan our bodies and minds, locate the center of our resistance and breathe deep, relax and allow it to dissolve. I have to tell you it helped. I still have a bit of a headache but at least my shoulders are not hunched somewhere up around my eye brows. As I sipped my tea a thought floated past; I resist a lot of things.

Let confine my resistance to diet and exercise for today.

My resistance to change creates a us versus them mentality inside of me. My patterned existence hangs on for dear life while the enlightened side me pushes forward looking to change. Within that whole conundrum I create a tempest of tension inside myself. That wall of resistance, that tempest keeps the healthy change at bay until I decide I'm a flawed human being, always have been, always will be and simply give up. Health like many other things is for someone else but not for me.

I realize I'm stating the obvious but sometimes I can lose sight of the obvious while searching for the exotic and sophisticated.

I closed my eyes again, drew in a few deep breaths and focused on that wave of negative energy surrounding me that resists me moving forward. I didn't bang it over the head with a karmic hammer. I first acknowledged it was there - How many times do you read blogs or responses to your own blogs that say something like this: Sorry you are having this issue John. I'll pray for you and thank God, did I say thank God, I don't have those issues. I never have and I never will because I blah, blah, blah." As a mentor of mine once said "Denial is just not a river in Egypt." - What's there is a strong desire to push that feeling of resistance away, to deny it even exists. I tipped my hat to it and let it go. I told myself that as long as I resisted the flow of positive energy, which also might be identified as GRACE, I was only going to tread water.

As I opened my eyes a subtle difference became apparent to me. My lack of sleep, my headache, my frustration with my lack of progress are there, to deny them would be foolish. The choice I have to make is whether I simply nod my head to them and let them sit quietly in the back row or do I allow them to take control of center stage and sabotage my day.

I can think of a million excuses not to do the things that make and keep me healthy. Tomorrow, if I'm not careful, there will be a million more.

Thank goodness I have you or I'd get lost for certain.

Namaste dear ones

Member Comments About This Blog Post:

    As a former nurse I often remind myself that my occasional bad day is nothing compared to people who wake up every day with challenges that would overwhelm most of us. My mother was one of them and when I start feeling like I want to be a weenie I remember how brave she was for 19 YEARS. It's very humbling.

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SLIMLEAF 6/18/2013 8:38AM

    I loved your mentor's quote about denial not being just a river in Egypt!

Hope your headache's better now.

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NASFKAB 6/18/2013 7:12AM

  love your wise enlightened thought provoking blogs

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SMAILEH 6/17/2013 7:53PM

  John, I am really enjoying your blog entries. They are thoughtful and reflective--dare I say enlightened?--and wise. Thank you.

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TERMITEMOM 6/17/2013 5:23PM

    Facing the issues head on is the first step to control. emoticon

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KARENLEIGH32 6/17/2013 3:49PM

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REGILIEH 6/17/2013 3:39PM

    I'm sorry to say I Knox exactly what you mean! Namaste! emoticon

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AJDOVER1 6/17/2013 3:01PM

    I'm working on my relationship with resistance. I can acknowledge it, observe it, respect it, and learn from it -- but I will not let it control me.

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NANCYANNE55 6/17/2013 1:26PM

    Congratulations on taking the time to listen to your body, acknowledge the source of your pain, and address it. That is, I believe, key in overcoming our struggles with getting and staying fit.

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EDWARDS1411 6/17/2013 11:56AM

    Yes John, I am sorry you had a lousy night and have the morning after effects, I know them all too well myself. Thank you so much for your insightful blog - such wise words will definitely help me on my next round of bad nights.
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JEANNETTE59 6/17/2013 11:40AM

  emoticon Blog!

Peace be with you, John emoticon

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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 6/17/2013 11:39AM

    re: "Sorry you are having this issue John. .... I don't have those issues. ....I never have and I never will because I blah, blah, blah."

Oh dear, you have a much larger base of comments to draw from! I've never had anyone say "I've never had that issue."

LOL - Who are they? emoticon

I'd love to visit THIER Spark pages! In addition to "Success Stories", perhaps Spark should start a "Paradigm of Perfection" link...

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ANATASHIKI 6/17/2013 10:54AM

    lol. same story here . just that I didn't have time for meditate and had to go to both my 2 jobs today. and the heatwave made the air burn my lungs and the rest of my brain melt emoticon really? people say that? sometimes I refrain myself to say hey , that happened or happens to me too cause it must look weird to say me too to a lot of people and life situations emoticon . I (almost) never feel energetic or good in the morning so I ignore how I feel and just start my day. sleeping or not , doesn't count much. just instead of ugh , 7 hours I think , just 7 hours and I'll be home emoticon

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CRYSTALJEM 6/17/2013 10:38AM

    Excellent again. I appreciate your thoughts. Had a similar night and once choir is done I will do the meditation that I resisted earlier. In out release. Thank you.

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KATHRYN1955 6/17/2013 10:18AM

    From a biological point of view, our bodies are always striving towards equilibrium. It never ceases to amaze me how much we allow our minds to interfere with that marvellous balance. I just watched an episode of the Nature of Things last evening which was about how the brain can rewire itself after strokes, brain injuries etc. (neuroplasticity) and how even thoughts can change the wiring. Meditation was seen as one of the key activities we can do make positive changes. So your morning practice is definitely setting you on the right path.....perhaps we truly can "think ourselves healthier."
Take care, John
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NEEDBU66 6/17/2013 10:02AM

    Right there with you, John There's the diet- calories and veggies and water. There's the exercise strength and aerobic. There's the medications to be taken. There's the job there's the house, there's the chores there's the relationships. There's the rub.

Just the next thing is all we really need. One moment at a time.

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BLUEROSE73 6/17/2013 9:32AM

    Sounds like an awesome realiziation this morning. We all too easily become wrapped up in the everyday things and sometimes let them overwhelm us. I'm so glad you have found a way past this and are able to once again focus on the important stuff

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MYGOLDENBOYS3 6/17/2013 9:02AM

    Thanks. Sounds familiar. I didn't sleep well last night either bothered by the million things I thought about that needed to be done before my daughter's visit this Friday. Your message hit me right where I needed it the most! emoticon

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DEBRITA01 6/17/2013 8:54AM

    Best to acknowledge life's little blips and not let them rule our day. Have a blessed Monday... emoticon

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19-VICKI-56 6/17/2013 8:47AM

  I needed this blog this morning John. Thank you for another insightful message. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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