Sunday, June 16, 2013
Well, I've been avoiding Spark like the plague recently because I'm a bit embarrassed by how far I have fallen. There's something about the type of insidious, persistent stress of university life that makes me pack on pounds; my weight is nearly back up where it was when I discovered Spark People. I haven't logged it in ages because I've inflated so rapidly that I feel like a balloon, but I need to turn it around so I guess it's time to get back to obsessively tracking every step I take and every morsel of food that goes into my mouth.
It's so, so frustrating to be at this point - I know how to eat healthy, and I know how good I feel when I exercise regularly, but I'm having the damndest time breaking back out of the cycle of Eating All The Things when I come home to my tiny apartment at the end of each day.
(Un)Fortunately, my puny grad student stipend will not support going out and buying a whole new wardrobe of larger clothes. This is serious motivation to get my act together and drop back down to where the clothes that I already own will actually fit again. I joined a CSA this year, so for the next five months I will have fresh local veggies delivered to my door every week. I can buy meat at the farmer's market, too, so that I can stay out of the grocery store and not be tempted by gluten free cookies or ice cream or too much fruit, so that's at least one step in the right direction.
I like doing research, I like the travel opportunities that I'm getting, and I like my colleagues, but UGH, academic servitude is wearing me out! I guess I just need to focus on my health, get my degree, and get back to The Real World with as few scars as possible.
Just keep swimming...