Made a HUGE decision...now for the consequences.
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Friday I put in a 30 day notice for quitting my job. I have NEVER quit a job in my life, so I am feeling like a failure at the moment. My workplace has been good to me, and I do not blame or harbor bad feelings toward any one person. My biggest reason is that I cannot physically or mentally handle the stress any more. We are a small company and we recently purchased a few other companies. This is good...it has kept us in business. But we have very little staff to deal with the huge amount of work these purchases have generated. Unless I put in overtime every week, I have no chance at keeping up. I have no problem with occasional over time, and have done it often, but this is either putting in 4-5 12 hour days a week or working normal hours during the week and then putting the extra time in on the weekend. I am already working 40 hours before adding all of this, and I just do not have the stamina to keep up. And I have dozens of priorities and goals that are receiving no attention because I cannot keep up with work. I know this may sound wimpy to those of you who work long hours to support your families. Maybe I am a wimp. But I can tell you I know I have done my best to resolve all of the issues before I came to this point. I have spoken to both of my managers about the workload and the lack of time, and they have responded by hiring a part time person to help answer phones and help me with other duties. But it has not been enough. The phones never stop ringing and often there are only a few of us in the office to answer them, leaving no time for actual work to get done. I have gained so much weight from the extra hours sitting in front of a computer, and the bad food choices I make because I have no time to prepare healthy food and little time to exercise. I have been thinking about this decision for a long time. I wanted to make sure I had done all I can to get help and make sure I am working as hard as I can and not wasting time. Also to make sure I wasn't making a mountain out of a mole hill. So after a particularly disheartening morning when I had an angry customer that was told we were making a service call, a tech that said he wouldn't go, and a manager right next to him that refused to talk to me (he knew it was me, not the customer), I had just been hit by the last straw. One of my favorite things about my job was the customer service aspect. Now my manager is out in the trenches working with the employees (not a bad thing) and I have lost multiple customers because he will not talk to them or talk to me about them to give me the tools I need to keep them. I used to be able to count on that support. It isnt often that a customer says I want to talk to your manager, but when it does happen, I know if I was the customer I would want to know that the manager cared enough to talk to me. So bottom line is the cost benefit ratio is wayyy off. The job is costing too much and the benefits are not worth it for what I am losing each day in my sanity. Monday morning my manager wants to talk to me about it. I am not looking forward to this conversation. I know it is scary to only have one person in the household working (my husband) and I know I have awesome benefits through this job, but what is the point if I am miserable?