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Dealing with grief...

Saturday, June 15, 2013

My blog entry yesterday was not totally honest. I left out one huge event of the last year, because I didn't want to talk about it. But I need to. I need to work on making peace with it.

August 25th, 2012, my best friend Mollie died unexpectedly. She had a very rare blood disorder, and a combination of a lot of factors (including an experimental drug) led to her death. I was 7 months pregnant and in the middle of a 14 hour road trip back to visit my family. I was going to my baby shower, that she was throwing for me. We had been best friends for 13 years, roommates for 8. I talked to her pretty much every single day for the last 13 years (no joke).

When it happened, I think I was in shock more than anything. As time has gone by, it's actually gotten harder for me to accept. I'm working on it, but it's a constant struggle. I just miss her so much, every single day. I wish she could have met my son.

Her death really sucked all motivation out of me. Between her death and the birth of my son, I've just been trying to survive. But, I think part of healing for me is getting healthy. For me, and for her memory.

Here's a picture of us about 3 years ago, after I got accepted to law school. She was so proud of me. I love you, Mollie.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

1DERLAND14 6/19/2013 3:22PM

    You are so brave to share this with all of us. I wish I had words that would take away your grief and pain. I am glad to hear that you had 13 years of wonderful times and memories with her. Sending you HUGE emoticon

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BETHSWORLD 6/19/2013 10:59AM

    This is so very sad. She was so young! It's like you two were Sisters. I can't imagine what you were and still are going through. I don't think many could imagine it. Glad you shared it with us!


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DARKFAERY 6/17/2013 10:24PM

    Hugs, my dear.

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SUSIEGKORN 6/16/2013 12:11AM

    You are a brave and wonderful friend to honor Mollie through blogging about your loss. Everyone deals with tragedy and loss in their own way. I am so sorry for your grief, and I'm sending you a gentle hug. I hope with time, you'll feel Mollie's peace and love each day. She'd love that!

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TINY67 6/15/2013 9:26PM

    Sorry for your loss. I lost my best friend of 50+ years a few years ago through a real fast cancer and he's still missed.

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