Saturday, June 15, 2013
My blog entry yesterday was not totally honest. I left out one huge event of the last year, because I didn't want to talk about it. But I need to. I need to work on making peace with it.
August 25th, 2012, my best friend Mollie died unexpectedly. She had a very rare blood disorder, and a combination of a lot of factors (including an experimental drug) led to her death. I was 7 months pregnant and in the middle of a 14 hour road trip back to visit my family. I was going to my baby shower, that she was throwing for me. We had been best friends for 13 years, roommates for 8. I talked to her pretty much every single day for the last 13 years (no joke).
When it happened, I think I was in shock more than anything. As time has gone by, it's actually gotten harder for me to accept. I'm working on it, but it's a constant struggle. I just miss her so much, every single day. I wish she could have met my son.
Her death really sucked all motivation out of me. Between her death and the birth of my son, I've just been trying to survive. But, I think part of healing for me is getting healthy. For me, and for her memory.
Here's a picture of us about 3 years ago, after I got accepted to law school. She was so proud of me. I love you, Mollie.