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Feeling cheated...

Saturday, June 15, 2013

This morning I awoke with this song stuck in my head. One of my all time favorites...

I remember Daddy´s hands, folded silently in prayer.
And reaching out to hold me, when I had a nightmare.
You could read quite a story, in the callouses and lines.
Years of work and worry had left their mark behind.
I remember Daddy´s hands, how they held my Mama tight,
And patted my back, for something done right.
There are things that I´ve forgotten, that I loved about the man,
But I´ll always remember the love in Daddy´s hands.

Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was cryin´.
Daddy´s hands, were hard as steel when I´d done wrong.
Daddy´s hands, weren´t always gentle
But I´ve come to understand.
There was always love in Daddy´s hands.

I remember Daddy´s hands, working 'til they bled.
Sacrificed unselfishly, just to keep us all fed.
If I could do things over, I´d live my life again.
And never take for granted the love in Daddy´s hands.

Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was cryin´.
Daddy´s hands, were hard as steel when I´d done wrong.
Daddy´s hands, weren´t always gentle
But I´ve come to understand.
There was always love in Daddy´s hands.

Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was cryin´.
Daddy´s hands, were hard as steel when I´d done wrong.
Daddy´s hands, weren´t always gentle
But I´ve come to understand.
There was always love .....
In Daddy´s hands.


Why is it that this time of year always make me blue?.

I listened to this song this morning on you tube and just sat and bawled all the way through the song.

It will be seven years ago this coming January that the lord called my step father home...and I look around me and see all these fathers and sons or fathers and daughters going about their lives, so happy and joyful.

And I think...Why can't I still have that feeling?. Why am I aching inside with a hurt so deep that I cry myself to sleep almost every night?.

I often wonder what life would be like if cancer hadn't taken both my stepfather and my biological father from me.

And now...to see my mother going through this same hell.

It makes me angry to know that there is nothing I can really do for her, other than be there.

And do you know the sad irony in all this?.

I had a Jehovah witness come to my door today and give me a pamphlet on a convention.

I took it from them...and when they left, it went in the trash.

I am a bible reading christian. Always will be.


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  • v ALIHIKES
    I miss my dad; he died 15 years ago. My mom has cancer too, along with congestive heart failure. But she is much older, and she is very limited in her mobility. I don't know which is sadder -- missing my wonderful father, or seeing my loving mom slide downhill with her health. On the other hand -- I was blessed to have loving wonderful parents for much of my life. emoticon
    1107 days ago
  • v FISHER011
    Peace be with you Lance...remember the good times with you Dads!
    Cherish your mother & do what you can to show her you love her- perhaps a plant or flowers for her room or even a new throw blanket for around her shoulders. I saw one for $5 at Walmart.
    Like I said before, make her something out of your new cookbook! Or take her her favorite candy.
    Bless you!
    1108 days ago
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  • v KKLENNERT809
    I feel your sadness. I pray that you will turn to happiness.
    1108 days ago
  • v DANCINCAJUN1
    I miss my Dad so much also .... but I sure remember all those laughs we had together ... he and I were like 2 peas in a pod ..... makes me happy when I think of him ... Roc
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  • v MOM2ACAT
    emoticon I totally understand, this will be my 2nd Father's Day without my dad. I don't think it's something that we ever get use to.
    1108 days ago
  • v SNOOPY6180
    Some years I can't even turn on the tv because I can't handle the father's day ads. There are always moments and triggers, and the stress you're under now is understandable. All I can say is remember the good times with your father and stepfather. It doesn't take away the pain, but it couples it with comfort.

    I'm so sorry for your losses.


    1108 days ago
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