Friday, June 14, 2013
I was having a bit of an off week and I was feeling old, fat and ugly. It was only a temporary thing, thankfully but it got me to thinking. Why do we do this to ourselves? Put so much pressure on ourselves? I think about the times I dressed in oversized clothes because I thought I was too fat to dress in something prettier. After all that is what society tells us, you have to be a certain size in order to wear that! I now wear shorts, sleeveless tops and skinny jeans and I don't care.
How many times did I deprive myself of a piece of chocolate or what ever treat because I felt I should be living on salads and only salads because I am fat. Now I not talking eating a whole cake as treat or entire chocolate bar. But if I want a small piece of dark chocolate now and then I will have it and not beat myself up. I am working very hard at my goal at eating healthier continued weight loss. I do P90x, ride my bike and walk. I may not be a size 2 but I know I am healthy and I am not living with guilt or shame of who I am.