Friday, June 14, 2013
I always thought myself far better than an addict... but now I identify with them.
Like an addict, we are all addicted to something weather it be life, children, husband, sex, food, clothes, there are just so many things that people are addicted to and to break our addiction is never easy, like the addict we relapse a thousand times, we just can't seem to get it right, as for me, my addiction is food.
I have my good days and my bad day and every time I think I'm getting it together I relapse and binge for a few days
It is surprising all the emotions and hidden secrets that surface when you are trying to make yourself better, ... you have to face the ugly side of you and it can be frightening
... that is why we run or stop trying to lose weight or becoming a better person, it easier don't you think?... to pretend that everything is perfect and not deal with me. I is so embarrassing to meet yourself for the first time and realize that you are what you hated and rejected all your life.. so the joke is on me!!!!
I have been doing great for a few weeks now but I am constantly watching myself because it really doesn't take much for a junkie to relapse.
They say the process of healing only starts when you know you have a problem and confess it.