Friday, June 14, 2013
After my last blog I went completely insane and started mainlining tequila and then blacked out.
I know I have an issue with alcohol because occasionally I cannot stop myself before I get to that point. It maybe happens three times a year. The last time it happened was my birthday in February, after which I quit drinking for a month.
I intend to do the same thing this time and quit drinking for a month. Part of me thinks I got so blasted because I wanted an excuse to stop completely? After all, I blacked out in front of all of my friends so now none of them can question me when I say I don't wanna drink. And I suspect even the casual drinking was sabotaging my weight loss efforts.
But since that day (Sunday), well actually since the day after (Monday), because I was so hungover Monday I murdered half of a papa johns pizza (I know, disgusting) , I have been sticking to my plan like nobody's business! I even said no to a "relaxing" glass of wine at dinner last night with my husband. And so I was neither tempted to overeat dinner or to get dessert afterward! So I think I'm winning. Sort of.