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RE: All About Me, My Role In, The (Real) World, & Also My, Role In The, (Dream/Fantasy), World 2. S

Friday, June 14, 2013

RE: All about me, my role in, the (Real) world, & also my, role in the, (Dream/Fantasy), world 2 is, as follows....

My role in, the (Real) world, is i am, an unemployed Student, (i used to, go to College), but had to, drop out as, i found it, so so hard, trying to do, English Level 2.

I will eventually, go back to, College 1nce i, have got my, Confidence back (i, am very very, Shy !!!! !!!!), which is why, i cannot go, back to College, as of yet.

I also have, to go back, to Working again, !!!! !!!! !!!!, which is going, to be very, very hard as, the last 2, places that i, worked at eg, Morrisons & Asda, i was Bullied, at both these, Places.

My role in, the (Dream/Fantasy), world is 1, of many different, Characters/Scenarios, (scenes) which happen, mainly/mostly, different nights when, i'm asleep/sleeping.

My 1st role, is i am, a Warrior Princess, battling to fight, to keep my, Castle/Kingdom, from being taken, over by an, Evil Ex (J N), who wants to, take control of, everything i own.

My 2nd role, is i am, on a Space, Ship spinning out, of control where, it will crash, land i have, no idea my, Planet (which had been, blown up by, an Evil Commander), is lost i'm, an only survivor. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ROLLINGREEVES 6/24/2013 2:40PM

    Might try meditation on you tube with music and some visualization...helps me sometimes.

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ANGRITTER 6/19/2013 2:45PM

    Start writing your dreams down and make a collection of short stories and try to sell them in magazines or short books. I know someone who doesn't have to work anymore because she writes so much!

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SWEETNEEY 6/19/2013 8:35AM

    Believe in yourself. There are on-line colleges and working from home jobs. Think out of the box so you can suit your personality. emoticon emoticon

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MAYBER 6/18/2013 3:25PM

    Take one day at a time
prayers peace love

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NGCHILD 6/18/2013 10:00AM

    I hope you are able to get back to college! Sounds like you need to pen your dreams to paper and publish them.


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    Perhaps you can incorporate some of your fantasy life into your real life. It sounds like you are actually a very brave person wanting to break out.

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FRANKLY5 6/17/2013 11:33AM

    Very interesting. What is the one thing you like most about yourself?

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LALMEIDA 6/17/2013 11:25AM


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SUNSHINE084 6/17/2013 3:23AM

    What do you want to be? In the real world?

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BMCOLLEY 6/16/2013 12:24PM

    I hope you return to college. Until you get your confidence back, have you considered online schools? This is an alternative way of schooling and you can go to almost any college/university anywhere in the U.S.--(Sorry, I am assuming you are in the U.S., if you are not in the U.S.)


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MARGOMCP 6/16/2013 9:45AM

    Make yourself a collage! My avatar is one I made (notice Viking warrior woman :-)

Comment edited on: 6/16/2013 9:46:36 AM

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GRNDMOM43 6/15/2013 11:32AM

    Sometimes our dreams bring out what we are experiencing or trying to deal with in the real world. emoticon

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BARCLE 6/15/2013 12:13AM

    Sometimes a dream/fantasy world can be better than the real one. Keep smiling emoticon

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MCJULIEO 6/15/2013 12:08AM

    Hang in there! We are rooting for you!

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    I know it takes courage to share things like this. I applaud your courage. We all have our own schedules and it is okay when they don't conform to what everyone else is doing. In the real world you can also be the warrior princess who doesn't let others bully you. Practice it over and over in your mind. Believe it with all your heart. Making it real in your mind can make real in your world. You can do whatever it is you need to do to have the happy and fulfilling life you deserve. Just don't give up. I'm rooting for you.

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ELSCO55 6/14/2013 10:01PM

    Keep dreaming. You will go back to school when you are ready.

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JTREMBATH 6/14/2013 8:40PM

    Thank you for your blog emoticon emoticon

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ALEXSGIRL1 6/14/2013 8:13PM

    never lose sight of your dreams

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 6/14/2013 7:24PM

    I dream I'm at hogwarts!!

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SUGARSMOM2 6/14/2013 4:55PM

  It is not a crime to take sometime to find one`s self . lost feeling and unsure feeling can make us all feel out of place . I hope you will find your way to school . good luck to you.

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GRACEOMALLEY 6/14/2013 3:22PM

    Never give up on your dreams and never give up on yourself.

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FEDGIRL4 6/14/2013 2:46PM

    I graduated college 15 years after I started it. Both my parents and I could not afford for me to go full time. I could only take one class at a time for a while. Then in my last three years, I took two sometimes.

I was the only one in my family to graduate from college.

Please go back to it when you can. It gives such a feeling of accomplishment. It also helps self esteem and that helps you not be a target for bullies.

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EILEEN828 6/14/2013 1:29PM

    I tend to be on the shy side of life myself, especially as a teenager. Some of the life changing things in my life were when I went to college (living on my own) and another was a job that I had that required putting myself forward in ways I wouldn't have done on my own.

College was great because I finally got to be myself with people who had no preconceived ideas of who I was supposed to be. The job forced me to do things that were fearful to me, for example being the one to initiate an interaction. And after I became very comfortable with that, then pushing my self out my comfort zone (my work environment) to promote/sell my product at their location.

Cold calling is very much against my nature; while I've learned to handle rejection in a stalwart fashion, it was the disregard of people's private space, that always seemed so wrong to me. I learned to soothe my feelings by finding out through practice that people were not as bothered by that, as much as I was. They after all were in their work place too and therefore open to advances by the public.

Often times I was making their lives easier by bringing what they wanted to them, instead of them trying to find the time to fit it in to their busy schedules. I also turned my services into an "employee benefit" that business' could provide their employees without it costing them any thing. It was a win-win situation.

The point here is while I acknowledge I literally had to push myself on threat of losing my job to do these things, it ended up being a growth experience for me. I learned that I was valuable too. That people are 90+% of the time really open to you and what you have to offer. That being yourself is the safest and most fun way to interact with people.

Life experiences and interacting with new people is what provides variety and "spice" to life. Expanding out of your comfort zone is a growth experience and good for you. You will find many new positive people, places, and things because of it. Turn negative experiences into simply something you learned by and therefore not really negative after all.

Your future is waiting for you and you get to be in control of it. Think of a new job as finally being the place that "clicks " for you. Your dreams are telling you that you feel disconnected right now and you don't see a way forward, but it is there. Your "have to" is to get a job. This can be the thing that finally grounds you. The new people are going to be good to you and for you.

As you succeed your confidence will expand. School can be the same thing for you. Try not to take on too many things at once, spread them out and give each one the attention it deserves. You can do this! Especially when you remember that you already have and this is a another try that is going to work. All your experiences work for you in the long run, sometimes it's a little hard to see the forest because of all the trees in the way. It's all in how you choose to look at it. Try; it's how you learned to walk wasn't it! emoticon

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KAYLSLYNN 6/14/2013 12:30PM


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COOP9002 6/14/2013 11:47AM

    Thanks for sharing this insight into your other life. Have a great day!

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NANCYPAT1 6/14/2013 10:42AM

    Good luck on sorting through your roles and finding a way to make things come together. What was it about the situations that you found yourself in at those jobs that you might be able to avoid in your next job? Sometimes it is a particular culture at certain jobs that allows and accepts bullying as part of it. Can you identify things that might warn you BEFORE you get into another similar situation that might lead to bullying? I am not in any way discounting or suggesting that you had anything to do with BEING bullied, but just that sometimes there are circumstances that you might want to avoid putting yourself in later. I know that certain jobs and settings seem to be hotbeds of gossip and power struggles and others seem to work more cooperatively.

Take your time and start working on studying your English and regain your confidence with your healthy strong body.

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JODIEC79 6/14/2013 10:30AM

    Self-esteem is something that is important to focus on, in my mind, for good overall health. Not only that, it will help you to deal with bullies, self-confidence, and standing up for yourself to those that are selfish and controlling.

I know you can do it, because you are able to recognize the area's that you want to improve. Keep at will succeed!

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DR1939 6/14/2013 9:20AM

    Glad to see you back.

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ANGYAS 6/14/2013 8:54AM


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KAB7801 6/14/2013 8:44AM

    Stick with the program and your self esteem will come
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Keep your dreams alive!

Comment edited on: 6/15/2013 9:52:27 PM

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JEANUT 6/14/2013 8:31AM

    I hope you can find a job and go back to college. Have you tried on-line classes?

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KELLIEBEAN 6/14/2013 8:01AM

    Believe in yourself. You are a strong, powerful person. You write blogs, you can do this, get out there and be proud of yourself!


Good luck to you!

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JSTETSER 6/14/2013 5:53AM

    I hope that you do get back to college. I hope that you find ways to learn and grow with out college. What do you do for work?

Have you ever heard of the Cathedral of the Pines? Beautiful spot! Here's a great shot

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