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RUSTEE23

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Hit rock bottom but slowly bouncing my way back

Friday, June 14, 2013

Been through so much this past year, its scary for me to type.
Going through a rough battle with depression.
I went from one emotionally abusive man to a physical abusive relationship that caused me to be brainwashed and almost lose myself.
This past week I have been feeling better and setting goals and dreams.
I was lost in his control for almost 11 months and put up with humiliation, name calling, threats of burning down my home and yet I still loved him.
I worry that when he picks up his stuff I will fall under his spell again...
My plan is to pay for a storage unit so I wont have to see him or his friends...I dont want to become the focus of his anger by moving his things but I dont want to fall back into that trap of taking care of his things since he moved four hours away.
I am taking it one day at a time and coming back home to spark people where I had sucess in losing weight and making friends will aid me in my journey back to love myself again. emoticon
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  • v SOAPSTRESS1
    You have taken a very important step in make yourself happy. Get rid of all the negatives in your life because they will just weigh your down,. You derserve happiness and now you can concentrate on you, coming back to spark is a good thing. Go out and join a gym, hobby or support group. I agree get out of the house stay busy and this will propel you into finding that special person you forgot about. YOU!
    I think the storage unit is a good idea. I wish you good luck! emoticon
    1095 days ago
  • v LJCANNON
    emoticon Welcome Back to SparkPeople! Taking steps to get control of Your Life is wonderful, even if it is a bit scary, too. Good Luck with getting completely free of the Guy and his Stuff!!
    1104 days ago
  • v SASSYTHING52
    so sorry but sounds like you got things in control dont give in emoticon
    1107 days ago
  • v PATJOONWW
    Or other ideas instead of a storage unit -

    1.) Pack his stuff give him a time limit to pick it up. Have a friend there. If he doesn't pick it up tell him you will donate it.

    2.) Ask a friend if he can pick it up at their house.

    3.) If it's not too much mailing or UPS to him, even shipping him a few boxes at a time will probably be less then a few months of storage.

    But if you do get a storage unit put it in his name so that you are not paying on it indefiniatly. You want to be done with this person ASAP. You deserve a kind, caring person and you don't want his baggage holding you back!

    Can you tell I just had a niece in this same predicament!?!

    emoticon Much success on your journey! emoticon
    emoticon ~Pat

    1107 days ago
  • v NANFACEMIRE1
    I am so hoping that things do get better for you.Good idea about the storage unit. It is so hard to get out of a relationship with an abusive person because of being afraid. I wish you the best in this situation. Do you have close friends you can talk with and spend time with. Check to see if there is a support group near you where you can go and talk with people that have been in the same situation and may be able to offer some good advice. Don't just sit at home because that will make you sit and think too much. Can you join a gym? Exercising will also greatly help...Good luck.
    1108 days ago
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