Thursday, June 13, 2013
after all the stress i decided to eat (portion controlled) ice cream, and chips (not so portion controlled). it felt so good to indulge. time in bed, a rainy day outside. an enjoyable book. and comfort food. i even took a nap. i know this is not something i can do regularly, or often. but, it sure felt good to do it today.
no guilt. no remorse. i was present in the moment and enjoyed every bite.
then, later, i was able to do things that i just havent had the desire, energy, or brain power to do, like pay bills, respond to a wedding invite, and give myself a pedicure. it sounds so silly, but it felt good.
i've been really stressed. still dont have "answers" yet, but, i feel better about it all now, like i can handle whatever comes. i guess i needed some time to freak out, then adjust, then dig out from under. now, i have the space to move forward. whatever that means.
thank you for all the support.
good night, Sparklers!