Thursday, June 13, 2013
She shows up from time to time trying to steal my shine and this time she's here with a vengeance. I thought I'd buried her fat a## but I realize she just goes into hiding and then comes out for surprise visits. I'll be minding my own business just Sparking, tracking, working out and making progress. Then out of nowhere...BOOM! The inner fat girl takes over and uses her fat super powers to cripple my efforts. She comes bearing gifts too! Cheetos, brownies, french fries and mmm...Moscato. She LOVES Moscato! Well newsflash: Moscato+Cheetos=FAT.
Then comes the shame. You know when you fall off your plan and you KNOW you should do better but you KEEP ON making unhealthy choices? All of a sudden you want to go into hiding. You back off on Sparking, tracking and even interacting with your teams thinking you can hide. Well...you can't hide and actually if you do the wrong stuff for too long there will me more of you to be seen because you'll expand instead of shrinking like you want to.
I know all of this. Yet I sit here having had Cheetos, a brownie AND Moscato today. WHY? Because I'm being lazy and it all tasted good on my palate. I'm fighting her but this week, Ms. Fatty has been winning. Looking at my WL tracker it's hard to even believe I made progress like I did so far. Once you've been off track for even one week your body FEELS super fat like it did when you started, even if you aren't physically that big anymore. Feeling fat makes you act fat. I'm acting real fat right now.
Today I wore a form-fitting dress to work (which I rarely do) and got SO many compliments about how good I look. So ironic. I had to keep it real and say Thanks but tell people not to gush too hard cause a sista been eatin Cheetos on the low.
Ok, I just had to vent. I invite all visitors to my blogs but please do not comment asking me if I'm depressed or on a binge or anything like that. It's not that serious. I'm committed to a healthy lifestyle but we all experince ebbs and flows and a bit of burnout now and then