Hi Sparkers! Happy Mid-June already! I am back from my Williamsburg trip which I took last week. We didn't get to see everything because of the 9 inches of rain we got from the Tropical Storm! I still had a good time though - some pictures are below. We went searching for toads/frogs in the rain. =)
Lately I have been having a hard time with my journey. I don't have the urge to Spark as often as I used to. I still love this awesome community - but I have been focusing on other aspects of my life. I spend a lot of quality time with my boyfriend, my parents, and his parents. I have been working on my plant projects a lot lately too.
In my mind, I want to reach my goal weight. I keep telling myself I NEED to do it. Tuesday was my first cardio kickboxing class. It was AWESOME. It was the hardest workout I have ever done. Doing this class makes me now think that 5K races are as simple as walking 20 minutes at any pace I want! The class was basically everything that I want in a workout. I think I worked out every muscle in my body to the max! We jogged for 5 minutes before the class started. It was strange running on the mats with no shoes on, but it felt good! After the class, the instructor said my cardio was great & it will take me a few classes to pick up all of the moves. My arms and shoulders were really sore yesterday, and my legs got more sore as the day went on. Today I soaked in the tub for 10 minutes to try and help out. My muscles are sore in my legs that I don't think I ever felt before! The feeling is GOOD. It makes me Want to work out more. I have 9 more trial classes. If I want to do any more, I will have to pay between 10 and 15 dollars a class depending on which deal I choose. That is expensive. The BEST deal they have would have me paying $527 for 50 classes. $10.50 isn't too bad for a class, but I don't have an extra 500 laying around!
I have been trying to find a dress for my cousin's wedding - which isn't until September. I hate that I feel insulted every time I need to find clothes no matter what type. Size 12 gowns are too big, size 10 are too small or make me look awkward. I love the look of many gowns, but they don't look right when I try them on. Somehow I did find a dress that I do like. It is an XL Juniors dress with spaghetti straps. I really like it, but it makes the flub stick out around my armpits. The XL fit better everywhere except the chest area - it is loose. The L was tight everywhere else except the chest area haha. My Mom said we can get it altered & I can get a a jacket to wear with it.. but I don't know. Maybe I will find something else that won't make me feel so insecure. I hate how putting on clothes can really change my whole outlook about myself so fast. Everything I try on usually puts me in a negative mood instead of a happy one! Trying on clothes really shows me my flaws. Maybe if I keep working out at the kickboxing class, my arms will look better!
Most of my troubles are mental. I eat "bad" food because I choose to do it. No one is making me snack extra during the day. When I wake up the next day, I keep telling myself "I shouldn't eat too much today because I want to lose weight". Then I snack and then snack again later on. I SHOULD spend more time planning out meals, but then I am not home some nights. If I had my own place, I wouldn't be traveling between places as often. What I am Actually Doing is making excuses for why I am going off track with my goals. I want to reach my goals, but I Need to make the time to do this!
I want to do Cardio Kickboxing & Zumba once a week.
I need to stay focused and actually doing this!
I want to sign up for another 5K, but I need to do more training.
I need to start tracking my food again
I will try to stay positive as much as I can
I need to relax when I start to get stressed
I need to not be so hard on myself if I "slip up"
I will do what I say instead of just hoping I will do it.
Hopefully everyone has a great rest of the week - Keep Sparking! I am going to try and catch up on some SparkFriend blogs. Those always inspire me to keep pushing forward!