There is healing on the wings of Jesus! But for you who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its rays. And you will go out and frolic like well-fed calves. Malachi 4:2 Yeno, I just love having fun for Jesus. It gives me the biggest thrill, and well, quite frankly I have never felt so wonderful in all my life. Guess that’s why I like to stay busy passing out “Kingdom” Nuggets. Been thinking a lot about this painting I bought for my kitchen a half a year ago. It’s actually the one pictured below. I bought that painting for a very specific purpose. You see I don’t remember a time in my life where I was not subject to some form of ridicule. It’s just my story. It’s not everybody’s story, and that’s ok! I mean come on PRAISE GOD if you didn’t have to go through being the butt of a joke or attract the wrong types of attention. God has been or was very merciful to you. I am thankful for what I have endured. I am thankful for the criticism and the misunderstandings because they have taught me to never sell out. They have taught me that I and I alone are good enough in God’s eyes. That I don’t have to, nor will ever have to be anybody but myself, I love that. What a wonder working miracle the Lord has done in me!
That’s why I share…I want ER’Y BODY to feel this good! I have a big tip for you, if you will, it is one that has anchored me through the toughest, longest storms of my life, and it goes like this. Thank you Paul for your obedience to Jesus Christ. I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us. Philippians 3:14 It’s is really cool and very true that for the most part my childhood and even my teen years are but a wisp in my mind and heart. They do not pull my strings, they do not alter my thinking, they do not ruffle me, or cause me to mistreat others because I am working out of old filters. Ah, some of you didn’t know we could treat people like that (through old filters), but it is very, very true.
Instead, the Lord has given me “one” visual to sum up my child/teen hood experience and it is a constant visual before me as to continually wash over me and remind me of the very heartbeat of God. You see when God heals you from trauma, he replaces the old with the new. Listen 2 Cor. 5:17, Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! Since I have been walking pretty solidly with the Lord for 12 years now, A LOT HAS COME AND GONE, if you know what I mean. My life was an absolute nightmare when I came to know Jesus, but luckily for us, God sees us from the end result to our point in time right now. He sees us as “finished” products. That is great news! I guess it gets sort of tricky when “others” don’t see us as such. Yes, that is quite tricky indeed.
Ok, so back to my painting. It is a restaurant setting with table and chairs. I imagine those chairs to all be full with lots of bustling and laughter. In fact, every time I go by it, I imagine it to be my high school cafeteria. There is a name on the billboard of this little eatery, in fact, she owns the place. I imagine her to be the girl I humiliated so long ago by pulling a chair out from under her in front of everyone in the school lunch room. I imagine her in control because although the jeers and laughs were outnumbered weighing far more than her cries, she was the best one of all. She did not retaliate although many had something to say, she simply sat back in her chair, ate her lunch and remained silent as like a lamb led to slaughter. I never heard a word from her about it, I never heard her say a mean thing to my face, although she has every right to do it, no nothing. She is a perfect example of Christ to me, and I a perfect example of a Pharisaical Hypocrite. Yes, that is the lesson I prefer to take with me to the ends of time. I have since forgiven myself, the Lord has, so who am I to beat myself up for it, but I will never forget. For the entire mean that had occurred to me, I did not walk perfectly before the Lord in the face of it. No by the time I was a teenager, I was ready to make everyone pay, and many, many people did. I don’t share that for you to feel sorry for me, lol. I am waayyyy past that, instead I want you to know you are not alone. If you have treated others like douche bags God gets it, and you know what? He. still. loves. you. Nothing, nothing, nothing can separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus, and the sooner we realize that, the sooner we can begin to obey him out of a pure and clean heart.
I need reminders of where I’ve come from. They keep me humble before the Lord. I am glad for this painting because as bad as it hurts me that I made this young gal feel utterly humiliated, it brings me great joy that God is bigger than any evil we have ever committed. Let’s pray. Father, we love you, we love you, we love you! There is no one greater than you, and there never will be. Without you Lord, we are a hopeless, vile mess of bleck, but with you Lord, the story changes quite dramatically. Like a climax to an incredible tale steeped in darkness and doubt, your light comes bursting through to show us who we really are, what we are really capable of, and then sweet Jesus the real fun begins. Thank you for loving us so much that you sent your very best. Jesus help us to in return give you our very best, in Jesus wonderful and honorable name, Amen!