Thursday, June 13, 2013
So not going to lie, but the weight gain that comes with the territory is terrifying me. Not because I think I'm fat, per se (I feel fat either way) but because I know how ridiculously difficult this is going to be to take back off... Thankfully I have learned that breastfeeding will burn around 500 calories a day (wooo!) but I still feel like I'm going to be so behind the power curve. I am now weighing more than I have ever weighed...ever...which is fascinating since I'm still (mostly) the same size...I just have a HUGE bump up front (with some added padding to thighs, calves and bum, because God wanted to punish me more I guess).
However, when I express my distress to the OB/GYN's at my health care facility they just shake their heads and say I'm doing fine...FINE?! How can this much weight be FINE?! I want to scream, but they assure me that, since all other variables are in normal ranges (my BP is awesome [it always is] and my blood work and urinalysis always come back clean) that I have nothing to worry about. Hmph, I say, tell that to my Ikea scale which I'm pretty sure is about 50 pounds from maxing out!
Otherwise...everything is, in fact, going smoothly. This week I have pulled a muscle in my lower abdominal, which, when you are this sensitive, feels far worse than it is, and can be achieved by doing as little as moving faster than you should have. It's a good thing I've left work, because I'm just about down for the count these days...which of course just adds to my sense of overwhelming odds for postpartum weight loss.
Le sigh. Guess I'll tackle it when I get there in another month and a half...let's just pray I don't balloon further til then!