I have an unhealthy obsession with the scale. I can't even tell you how many times I have woken up feeling GOOD; lean, fit, strong, only to step on the scale and be totally crushed by the number not backing me up. But I think I have finally realized today that IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT I WEIGH, despite the fact that every doctor's appointment starts with a weigh-in and BMI charts are everywhere, constantly proclaiming everyone to be fat or obese using the most RIDICULOUS formula ever, never mind muscle mass, athletic ability, etc.
The bottom line is I know many people who weigh next to nothing but have little to no muscle tone, and could not even run 1 mile even if their life depended on it. If I looked like this:
would I care if the scale said 180???? NO! Of course not. The number really means nothing. I think that is why even when I DID get down to goal, I didn't fully appreciate it. Yes, I was smaller. Yes, I wore a smaller size, but I still felt like I had so much more improvement needed: stomach, arms, legs... I mean that's like most of my body.
So now, I am going to focus on how I feel. Period. When i have a great workout day, like yesterday, and I can FEEL the results of that NOW, why should it matter what the scale says? Why should I let it have the power to send me into a funk where i criticize myself and give in to feelings of despair? It's silly, really.
I know this: When I eat clean and good, I lose the bloating and feel STRONGER and leaner. Yesterday was a good day: tons of water, a little higher on the fruit side but that's just because it was Grocery Day Eve
and that's what I had on hand. But i didn't mindlessly snack. I didn't eat processed food, no grains or gluten and I ROCKED it out for two classes (we brought it pretty hardcore for the 2nd class last night. Hello sweat!)
I'm going to run again tomorrow morning, and will go this Sunday as well. I'd like to try for 5 miles on Sun. I will be alone this weekend, so eating will be on track for sure. Will develop my solid ST plan this weekend too and work on that. Only reason I haven't is because i've been doing so many squats, lunges, and upper body work already this week in toning and Sentao that i'm a bit sore as is. Been doing more planks, push ups, and that was part of my ST plan, so I'm kinda-sorta putting that into action already. I know the 2.5 weights used in toning aren't doing a lot on the muscle building front, but they DO make a difference.
Anywho, that's all I know for today. Have a half day tomorrow so I can go get my passport in order.
77 days til beach time!